Legacies - Posie

8 - mom's talk

Josie's POV

" Goodbye Penelope." I mumble to myself, secretly hoping for her to turn her back and stay just a second longer.

I'm left crushed when I watch her figure dissapear from my sight and the already falling tears escalate down my cheeks in the speed of the niagara falls.

I fall to my knees and scream with all my strenght until I run out of breath and the uncontrolled crying takes over me.

I did this to myself! I let her back in, not fully, but even that small time she was in my life the recent week ripped the heart I've been trying to heal for the past months. I broke my own promise to stay away from her, but it was so hard! I still loved her so damn much and I just couldn't stay away...

" Josie! " I hear my mother shout as she vampspeeds towards me and quickly embraces my body into her arms.

" What happened? " she asks multiple times, but I don't answer. Instead I continue crying my pain out.

I can feel my mom saddening at the sight of my breakdown and that makes me cry even harder.

" Everything will be okay!  " my mom says softly while she caressed my hair.

I bury my head into her arms " No it won't! " I manage to say through my sobs.

My mom brings my face in front of her " What happend sweetie? "

I shake my head refusing to talk about it. My mother sighs and brings my head to her shoulder and continues caressing my hair.

" Penelope was here. " I whisper weakly and I can feel my mom's face frowning.

" Did you invite her to come?" my mom brings my face to her sight and rubs my tears away.

I shook my head " No, she just showed up. "  I say and continue to take calmer breaths to relax my breathing.

" Mind if we talk about it?" my mother asks while she puts a strand of hair behind my ear.

" Okay. " I sigh and force a smile. I take a deep breath before I share the whole story with my mom - well since last night really.

" Wait you two kissed? " my mother coveres her mouth with her hand.

" Mom! " I laugh at her shocked expression and bury my head within my arms in embarasement.

" What? I'm excited for you. " she says as she laughs and I rise my head to look at her.

" Why didn't you tell me?"  she asks.

I lift my shoulders " I didn't know what it meant for me and I wanted to know before I tell anyone." I confess to her and myself too. I didn't know what the aftermath was going to be. I knew I wasn't fully over Penelope, yet I couldn't see myself getting back together with her, but I didn't want her out of my life either.

I know she might still has some feelings for me, but getting back in a relationship with her is not the best option for me.

" Josie I know you still love Penelope, but why would you tell her that you wanted her to move on?"

I sigh before I start "Penelope deserves someone who will know what they want and will be there for her. I won't lie that it won't hurt seeing her happy with someone else, but she deserves to be happy with someone. I'm just not that person for her anymore..." I finish saying and my tears start rolling down again. I hate crying in front of my mom, but I just can't hold it, no matter how hard I try.

" You will find someone to love you the way you need to." my mother says and forces a smile while she rubs the tears away from my cheeks.

" What if Penelope was that person for me and I missed my chance for true happiness." I sob as I confess my worst nightmare.

" There will be many broken hearts until you meet the right person. This is how it was for me. I hope it takes less broken hearts for you sweetie." my mom says as she sits beside me and hugs me sideways.

" I hope so too..."  I say and lean my head on her shoulder.