Relapse-CH/LH

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Luke's POV

I was shaking almost violently as I stared down at my phone. It was near impossible to type. I glanced up at the girl that was sleeping in bed still.

'I'll be there soon.'

I stood up, this was the thing I had to do for sure. It was stupid of me to not think about it before. But now it was all that I could think about as I began gathering my stuff. Calum has put it best, Emma was a girl and the band was more. The band made me money, Emma did not. Just as quick as she jumped to me she'd jump to someone else. Calum has convinced me it was Emma or the band.

I chose the band.

I packed all of my stuff and cleaned the hotel room so that when Emma woke up all she had to do was get her stuff and go to the airport and didn't have to worry. I packed her stuff for her leaving out the essentials I knew she'd probably use. I took the remainder of the alcohol knowing her she'd drink it and miss her flight. I went over to her phone opening it the same passcode it always had been the only thing that changed was the photo of Calum changed to me. I set an alarm to wake her up after I left. I was careful to be quiet, if she had woken up I wouldn't have known how to explain this.

"Hey, Sorry I just realized it was the spur of the moment decision to run away with you to a random hotel in New York that wouldn't have actually worked out very long for me in the long run."

That's what it was, but not something I could let leave my own mouth. I didn't regret last night the least bit, infact everything about it was great. I'm just stupid. I should have never told her I loved her, I should have never taken her to bed. For god sakes I should have never let her follow me home from the bar. But I did because I wanted to. Now that was all coming back on me. And it hurt so bad. I sat down at the kitchen table with a napkin infront of me and a pen contemplating what I would write. I decided not to touch on really why I was leaving, she'd know anyways.

'You'll never understand how much this hurts and how sorry I am but know I meant every single word I said.'

I didn't sign it she would know who it's from. There was only one asshole in this hotel. I put the napkin next to her on the bed side table and stared at her for a moment as she still slept. She looked happy, a lot better than she had yesterday morning. I felt like my whole chest was caving in, I didn't want to do this at all. I wanted to crawl back in bed and never let her go, I wanted to block Calum's number and tell him to fuck off, so what was stopping me? What pushed me over the edge of deciding to leave. I shakily exhaled trying to quiet myself as much as I could and I felt my cheeks heat up as hot tears fell down them. This was the first time I had cried over Emma in a long long time and I was crying hard. I wiped my face and leaned over Emma kissing her forehead as softly as I could just enough so I could feel what I was doing. I sighed knowing that I had finished everything that I needed to do which meant it was time for me to go.

I grabbed my stuff and went out to my car, then I drive back to my previous hotel where Calum was going to let me stay in his room with him.

Emma's POV

I woke up and Luke's arms weren't around be, at first that didn't alarm me, but when I realized he wasn't in the bed it did.

"Luke?" I called out. No response.

"Luke?" I called louder sitting up, I sighed no response. I sighed as I sat up, his stuff wasn't strewn out on the floor anymore, it was no where to be seen. I felt my heart stop.

"Luke!" I screamed out jumping out of bed this couldn't have possibly been happening to me. I started running around the hotel room looking in every room. He never responded because he wasn't here anymore. I was hungry for any explanation as I darted around the hotel suite. I heard my phones alarm go off. I ran out to the bedroom again back to where I got up on my side of the bed. I looked at the phone seeing an alarm that read.

You still have to get up for your flight

From under the phone peeked my plane ticket and under that was a napkin. I got my explanation and it broke me. He really was gone, he was the last person I would have expected to one night stand me but he did. I felt like I was slowly falling apart as I read the note. I felt sick as a notification came in through my phone.

Luke Has sent you 300$

I threw my phone across the room letting it hit the wall.

"I don't want your fucking money, I want you!" I threw myself down onto the bed finally letting myself cry. I couldn't believe a second of this I felt like this was some wierd fucked up dream but as it kept on lasting I knew it wasn't this was real. I had a good cry for a bit before going into the bathroom to see sonthing worse. Not only did he up and leave me, but I was covered in his marks reminding me of last night and everyone else what he did before he left. Worse of all though I was wearing his red shirt.

Luke's POV

"Wow what's up with you?" Calum asked as I sat down next to him on the couch. Ashton was in the other side of him and Jalee and Michael were sitting at the kitchen table. Everyone's eyes were on me.

"What do you think?" I asked, he knew the answer I think I hated him I didn't know why I was back here. "I feel like an asshole." Kalee glared at me.

"You should!" Kalee said. She was right, I deserved this. Michael just looked at me, I couldn't read him, was he disappointed in me, was he sorry for me. I couldn't tell.

"I hope that she catches her flight, I sent her 300 for an Uber or whatever." I said Kalee didn't look pleased.

"She doesn't want your fucking money! She wants you!" She screamed out at me. I sighed, she was right again but I didn't know what to do.

"Kalee, they fucked, not in love!" Calum snapped back, I caught eyes with Michael and Kalee. I thought we were.

"Did you even fuck?" Ashton asked he seemed to be the only sensible one that wasn't jumping to conclusions left and right.

"Yes." I said slowly as I could feel Calum's eyes burning into me. What did he expect.

"What else happened there?" Kalee asked seeming as if she was calming down. Michael talked taking me off gaurd.

"Did you tell her how you feel?" He said slowly I nodded. Everyone looked at me, maybe Ashton and Calum didn't know but I did like her more than a fuck.

"And she said it back, and she was so sweet, she cared." I said back Calum looked pissed I didn't care.

"And you left her." Ashton said getting up and walking out probably to go back to his own room.

"You're more of an asshole than Calum." Kalee said as she got up leaving behind Ash. Calum went into his room shutting the door leaving me staring at Michael.

"I told you to be patient and wait for her to come around, not throw her away when she did." He said getting up and leaving. Now I was alone. I put my head in my hands and I felt myself start to get upset again and then I started to cry yet again. I knew everyone else would get over me leaving her but I knew she wouldn't. I had made a mistake. Calum came out from the room putting his hand on my arm. He pulled me into a hug, I hugged back. He pulled away smiling.

"Cmon man, cheer up, let's go to the hot tub or something." I smiled shaking my head as I wiped my face.

"I don't want to go anywhere near a hot tub right now."

Time skip

The rest of the week in New York was uneventful, well at least for me. They all went out every night I didn't join because I didn't want to. I ate drank and watched TV that was all. Now that I was back in my apartment building with my things just felt horrible. I looked at Calum's door as I walked past it. It was weird seeing only him walking in. I walked down further to my room opening the door. I felt my heart drop. Every thing was normal, everything was in place except for the bed.

On the bed laid my red shirt, 300 dollars, and the key to my apartment that once belonged to Emma.