Feel and fall are synonyms .

Done

I'm done .

That 2 word  sentence is everything yet nothing ...
It's a sentence that is in my head at least 4 times a day , I'm done ... I'm done with being alive  , with bothering everybody around me . I'm done with feelings I'm done with me .

Do you know that day that you realise ... that you think about killing yourself at least twice a day ? That is when you realise ...  you have fucked up , when you realise that you just got into something that you can get off with ...  when you realise you are worthless and all the effort you make is useless , when you realise you are no one , but you realise you are everything , your everything , the one who understand you , the one who loves you  ... I'm confused ... we all are at some point ... lonely .... but Is my fault ... I try to get closer to people but they just stop laughing when I'm around ...  And I don't  want that ... so I promise I won't try again ... or at least I'll try to promise that , because  after all I'm just a selfish person .... and That sucks .