Howling

Inside Voices

Inside voices.

I was never very good at knowing what decibel I was speaking at.

At knowing when to shut the hell up

I never really understood the term "leave good enough at good enough."

Because I never understood why you would stop when you could achieve better.

I will not stop talking in my inappropriately loud voice until I get the results I want.

I will not shut up until you understand my point of view.

While I might keep quiet enough for you to add in a rebuttal, I will most likely take that shit and tear it to pieces.

Because I have been told to keep my opinions to myself.

And I have been told that no one wants to hear what I have to say.

So this is my only way at getting revenge.

My opinions will be heard until the day I die.

I will never again keep my thoughts to myself and wallow in self pity because I cannot say what needs to be said.

I will never again swallow down something that needs to be brought to light.

I will never again stand by while someone oh so subtly tears apart a persons soul.

I was never very good at inside voices.

Then I got to good at not talking at all.

So now I talk to loud about things that people need to hear.

Now I speak bluntly.

Now I take care to clarify exactly what I mean.

Because being told no one wants to hear what I have to say broke me.

And now I am building myself up through undisguised words and ear shattering volumes.