Paint by Numbers

Damien Hubbard I Will Kill You

"Jan you really need to tell her how you feel."

" Why? She 's straight why would she care that I like her? "

"You don't know if she's straight!"

" Yes I do! She has a boyfriend! "

Damien gives me a dirty look but quickly drops the subject when Cady approaches the lunch table.

"Hey Caddie!" A huge smile on my face. I literally can't not smile when I'm around her it's honestly gotten to an embarrassing point.

"Hi Jan!" She says setting her tray down.

I blush. God why am I blushing?

" How 's your day been? "

"Good Aaron and I are going on a date tonight!"

My smile fades. I know she has a boyfriend and I know she's straight but I still get disappointed every time it's mentioned.

"Are you okay? Was it something I said?"

" Oh it was definitely something you said" Damien chuckles. I kick him under the table.

"Ow, Janis!"

" What did I say? "

"Nothing"

"You were talking about Aaron and she got jealous."

I kick him again much harder this time, my face turning bright red.

"Someone 's got to tell her Jan!" I know he's probably right Damien's always right as much as I hate to admit it.

" Why would you be jealous Aaron? "

Damien keeps his mouth shut and Cady stares at me waiting for an answer I can't give her. I look down pretending to be invested in eating, which isn't a long shot considering how much I eat on a daily bases.

"Are you jealous because..."

Here it comes she knows I like her and she 's going to reject me. I just want to curl up into a ball and cry but I know that's not an option. God why to i have to be so bad at telling other people how I feel?

"I have a boyfriend and you don't?"

I laugh. With relief or shock i don't know probably a bit of both. I'm not figured out. At least not yet.

"Cady, I'm gay"

She looks at me in shock. "Oh wait really, oh my god! How did I not realize! I mean not that it's that obvious,it's just i feel like I should have known. "

I laugh again. "Its fine, I don't like telling people. I'm not embarrassed by it or anything. It just is t something I love to broadcast. I thought I was telling you when I told about the Regina thing but I should have realized you wouldn't be able to pick that out. "

"I'm sorry"

"You don't have to be sorry. You're disability is not your fault. "

"Then why are you jealous Aaron?"

I take a deep breath I have to tell her. I feel Damien grip my hand under the table. "Because he has  the world's most amazing girlfriend and I wish that I could have her as my girlfriend but I know she doesn't think about me that way "

"We that's so sweet I will tell her you feel that way...wait! I'm Aaron's girlfriend!"

I laugh and nod my face getting even redder.

"You like me?"

I nod and squeeze Damien 's hand.

"I think I like you too." She says softly.

" Wait! what?"

I'm going to continue this in another part because I'm typing this on a kindle and it's a mess so hope you enjoyed don't forget to vote.