Only You || Luke Hemmings

4. Luke

What have I done? I didn't mean to upset her or make her mad. I was just trying to help, but now I've probably gone and screwed everything up by trying to stick my nose into her business. Nice one, Luke.

But what do I even mean by thinking I've screwed everything up? What is everything? It's not exactly like we were making progress in our relationship with each other. Yeah, so we walked home together (as usual) and I leant her my jacket because it was raining. So what? That doesn't really mean anything. Anyway, the only reason we even started speaking that night was because of Michael shouting down the hallway that I had a crush on her. I feel so pathetic.

But no matter how much I feel like I should just walk away and stop trying to help her, I can't. I want to get closer to her, and to do that I need her to know that she can trust me with her problems. But how can I get her to trust me? I've never had to even begin thinking about things like this before. I mean, I'm Luke Hemmings. Girls usually just throw themselves at me willingly without a care in the world, so when it comes to girls I've never really had to consider making friends first and gaining their trust and respect. I don't know where to start. I'm utterly clueless.

However, I'm aware enough to realise that it's not going to be easy. She's never opened up to anyone before, as far as I know. Why would she open up to me? On the inside, we may be more similar personality wise than we think, but on the outside we're two completely different people. Adding to that, the people I choose to hang around with don't exactly scream "I'm completely trust worthy, tell me all your secrets". Unavoidably, the way my friends act reflects on me as well. We're all associated within the same category, which is most likely popular, arrogant twats. I just hope she can see that there is more to me than meets the eye.

My mind is a complete mess of feelings and thoughts, so when I spot the boys outside in our usual spot by the benches at lunch time I go over and join them, as they'll no doubt take my mind off of everything. But man am I wrong.

"Hey, loser," Michael greets, causing the other boys to laugh slyly; a sound I'm all too used to hearing at the moment.

"What's with the nickname?" I question, cautiously taking a seat next to Ashton.

"We just think it suits you, mate, " Ash says, shaking my shoulder firmly with his hand which I shrug off seconds later.

"Why?" I ask simply.

"Well, it's either that or lover boy?" Calum says, collapsing into a fit of laughter along with everyone else at the table.

"What the fuck are you on about, dude?" I respond harshly.

"You and Daniella, or whatever she's called," Michael laughs. "Since when were you friends?"

"It's Danielle, and we're not friends."

"Staring at her constantly? Walking home together? Lending her your jacket? Flirting with her earlier at break? It certainly doesn't seem that way," says Calum.

"We are not friends! Number one, I do not stare at her in any way. Number 2, we've always walked home together; we're fucking next door neighbours! Number 3, it was pouring down with rain and she was shivering; I was just being kind. And number 4, we were not fucking flirting! I was talking to her about something serious and personal to her, actually, so stop being such assholes!"

They all go silent for a moment, shocked at how mad I'd got in such a short space of time. I don't know why I'm so annoyed, maybe because I'm slightly in denial about it all? But regardless of that, they're just being jerks. I know it sounds weird as I don't even know her properly, but I do care about Dani. So when they're being disrespectful and rude I just can't keep my emotions in.