❝Love the new album.❞
❝Really? I got a different impression from your tweet.❞
OR
The one where Louis gets mad and tweets something about Zayn he doesn't end up regretting, ever.
[ I don't own Good Years or any other lyrics mentioned in this story. P...
[ i wanted to write this as soon as good years came out, it's like a week or two after but it's still rushed but i don't care. angst angst angst. also while i love ziam, i'm zouis trash and good years + there you are screamed zouis to me. ]
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Louis had felt utter, blinding rage a four times in his life. The first time was when he was twelve and Henry Potter had told him that being gay was a sin and everyone who chose to be gay were going to hell. Louis decked him in the face and got suspended. The second time was when Niall was cornered by 'fans', telling him that he was ugly and didn't deserve to be in the band. The third time was when Briana had threatened Danielle, who for the record was just a friend, because she was photographed holding Freddie and apparently that was her 'mothering him'. The last time, the most recent time, was now: when Zayn had released his new single 'Good Years'.
A few years ago, after Zayn left One Direction, he made the comment that "he had never wanted to be in the band anyway'. Louis remembers feeling so small and so hurt, and when he looked at his bandmates faces they shared similar looks. Zayn had never mentioned that he hated the band before he left, Zayn always told Louis he was happy because he was with his mates and that's all he could ask for. Maybe he was lying. But Louis didn't think so.
Louis just think he's lying now. And being a dick.
He was supportive of Zayn leaving, if he wanted to make solo music he should. But saying shit like that? Pretending that Harry, Niall and Liam weren't his family? That Louis wasn't his family? It was bullshit and it hurt him more than he let on with Harry. And Zayn knew it would hurt them, hurt Louis.
And then, Christ, that horrible twitter scandal happened between Louis and Naughty Boy, with Zayn jumping in at the end. That really broke things between them, but Louis couldn't help it. Zayn kept making digs at Louis when doing interviews, when tweeting and he saw that guy's stupid face and he lost it. Louis wanted to apologize the next day, but he didn't. He regretted saying that stuff to what's-his-face, but he didn't regret angering Zayn. Showing the world how their relationship was now to the world, what he created.
Swallowing, Louis heard the lyrics ring through his head for the millionth time. He heard Zayn sing about wasting his Good Years, he heard Zayn sing about their relationship in some parts too—"Too much drugs and alcohol, what the hell were we fighting for?"—Yeah, as if that wasn't Zayn sticking his finger in the air at Louis. That night was a mistake, in retrospect, a night filled with too much whiskey, careless flirting and shared secrets about how they loved each other deeply. Zayn might've not classified those as 'good years' but they were fucking sacred to Louis. The years with Zayn were the best years of his life.
Zayn helped him through everything. Everything. He was there when his Mum was diagnosed; he held Louis' hand in the waiting room as Joanne was in there with doctors. He was there afterwards too, when he found out the news that his mother only had a few years left to live if she was lucky, and he cried into his shoulder the entire night. Zayn was there to help him get over his stupid fear about going on stage. Zayn gave him confidence. Zayn gave him everything. And Louis did in return, at least that's what Zayn used to tell him.
