All Connected || taennie •

Unwind Pt. 2

So basically imma finish this chap today!!

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TAEHYUNG'S P.O.V

"YAH TAEHYUNG-AH! WHY ARE YOU SLEEPING?! START MOVING!! "

Now that's really loud. I held my temples as I stand up from the couch. Why did I even sleep tho? Ugh, am I that tired? I started moving slowly to my room to get my towel. Jin hyung intentionally pushed me forward, "Yah! I was yelling at you yet you're still slow at moving."

I am the battered member here, aside from Jungkook and Jimin. They kept on hitting me since this early morning, that Jimin even slapped my holy forehead for fvck's sake, it almost went purple. I rubbed mt forhead with my palms. And now my back hurts, grandma Jin pushed me rough.

"TAEHYUNG-AH! In 15 minutes I should see you in your clean clothes now! Palli!"

Aishht. Namjoon yelled again. I was being fed up with yells and pain already. I lazily got my towel and rushed to the bathroom.

**after bathing**

Stepped out and saw my reflection in the mirror. I wiped the mirror as the blurry part vanished. My hair's drippin' wet, the drops of water were hitting my eyes, nose, and lips (see what I just did there?😏) and probably my cheeks. I wiped 'em off. I feel like my anxiety was coming at me, especially now that our fame is rising up on top and instead of being overwhelmed, I'm afraid for the next few days on what would happen. I felt my left hand started to shake, I almost teared up staring at it.

Why am I suffering this?? I might sound ridiculous but it started since I ended things with Jennie, and also by the time when she and her co-members were announcing their debut, that's when it came back real hard. I am too afraid facing the reality that we're in the same spot of the industry now. Afraid that the past would brought up especially now that her and I are idols. Rumors and scandals are widley spread nowadays and I'm not ready for those. But seriously my panic attack/anxiety started back in middle school , way before I met Jennie since she was still in New Zealand and I barely even know her but because YG kept on spoiling their new girl group in 2011, I had a bit of information about her. Since Jennie and I started going out, I felt like she's one of the factors why my anxiety didn't came for awhile but there are days that my anxiety was attacking me especially when the company almost dragged down and we weren't so sure if we'll debut still, good thing I still had my Jennie. She was there comforting me when I felt so unsure with the plans of my company.

The worse part was, I left her, knowing that their debut kept on pushing back, it was much more harder for her than I did experience when I was a trainee. I was too selfish, I should've been there cheered her up and make her feel good everytime she's down. She was there for me, waiting with me, whether it's her announcement to debut or it's mine, but seeing her really happy when she knew that I was gonna debut. My heart ached so bad seeing her holding back her tears with joy and sadness at the same time, because I was done being a trainee while her, she was still in the dungeon, reality indeed hurts. But it added up more pain when I broke up with her. It must've have been a shock to her, she entirely misunderstood why I broke up with her, it's for the both of us, I wanted to protect us before everything gets worse.

I took a glance at my image again, I am a mess, since then I am a mess.

"Psst! Fast, Namjoon will scold you again." Yoongi hyung opened the bathroom door, I Am still in my towel, covering the half bottom of my body. I shook my head as I went into my room.

**Van**

"V-ssi, you okay?" Maknae asked, I am so not in the mood to have a talk with anyone right now, my anxiety were attacking me at the bathroom. I know that the members were sensing something that I am a bit off since we left the dorm.