SHE LIKES GIRLS - CAMREN

2. I Fucked Up, Didn't I?

I spent the afternoon with Camila, watching series. We didn't talk much after that kiss. Holy fuck, I kissed Camila! I was her first kiss! Damn. Did I dream that? We were both so flustered after the kiss, we could barely look at each other. I'm home now, laying in bed thinking. No one's home. It's Friday after all, but I'm here in bed, thinking about that kiss. How did I ever get so lucky? I'm the girl who stole Camila's first kiss, well technically she asked me to take it. I take my phone in my hands, it's been charging for a while. Good enough right? I text Normani straight away. She knows Camila is my crush.

Me: I need to tell you something. I kissed her.

She doesn't reply, she's probably out too. I put my phone down for about two seconds, then it rings. I pick up quickly. "Mani! Did you get my message?" I say. "Um, this is Camila" the person on the other side says. "Are you with Normani?"

"No Lauren. I also have a phone you know" Camila laughs. I laugh a little embarrassed. "Sorry. To what do I owe the pleasure?" I joke. "I'm bored. I know you were just here a while ago but everyone's busy. I was hoping I could talk to you. We didn't talk much anyway, not after the...kiss" she says.

"It's fine. We can talk" it's so much easier keeping your cool over the phone. "Okay, let me tell you a story then" Camila giggles. "Listening" I say. "One time I went to the supermarket alone, I was looking for bananas" she says. "Obviously" I laugh. "Hey, I'm serious about bananas" she says. I can practically see her pout right now. "So then what?" I ask. "No, you're mean" she says. "How?" I laugh. "You laughed at me" she says. I know she's playing, she's so cute. "I'm sorry Camila" I say, playing along. "Camz" she says "Call me Camz." "I'm sorry Camz" I say. "Now where was I?" she says. "I can't remember" I laugh. "Me neither. It'll come to me later" she laughs.

"So why aren't you busy tonight?" I ask. "Dinah invited me to a party with her but I don't like that kind of stuff" she says. "Oh. Now I remember Normani telling me about that" I say. "Oh. Did you want to go?" she asks a bit disappointed. "No. I'd rather talk to you" Woah Lauren, chill, don't make it so obvious. "Aw. I'd rather talk to you too" she says on the other side. All of a sudden I hear Camila scream.

"Camila, what's wrong?" I ask worried. "Pizza is here. Hold on" she says. Oh thank God. I hear her running away from the phone. In about three minutes until she's back. "Sorry. I ordered pizza! A big one" she says. "Aren't you going to share?" I joke. "Sure, just come over" she says. "I was joking Camz" "Oh, I was serious. My parents are with friends, it's just me and Sofi. Someone needs to babysit us" she laughs. "Okay, I'm on my way" I laugh. I jog down the stairs, quickly out the door and hop into my car. I'm going to see Camila again. This is awesome.

When I get to the front door I can hear Camila's sister yelling on the inside. "Kaki, I want to watch Frozen now!" I laugh to myself and knock on the door. "Coming!" I hear Camila's familiar voice say. She opens the door. "Oh thank God you're here. She's driving me crazy" she shakes her head while showing me inside. "Lauren!" I hear Sofi's little voice, but I don't see her. "Sofi? Where are you?" I say. I hear a small giggle behind the couch. I walk closer. The small girl jumps out in an attempt to scare me. We both laugh. She jumps into my arms and gives me a big hug. I turn around to see Camila smiling at us sweetly. "I'll get the pizza" she says when she sees I caught her staring. "I want to watch Frozen" Sofi says happily. "Me too" I smile at the small girl.

Camila returns with the pizza. Sofi manages to put the movie on all by herself. Camila takes a seat next to me on the couch while her little sister sits on the carpet surrounded by pillows. Camila opens the box and we dig in.

I scrunch my nose. Hawaiian. Camila laughs at me. "Pineapple on pizza" I say shaking my head. "Just try it" Camila suggests. I take a bite. Not too bad, but not good either. "See? Good right?" she asks. "If you say so" I say taking another bite. Telling myself each time a new bite is taken I'm doing it for Camila. It works. Throughout the movie I steal glances at Camila. I even caught her looking at me. It's very enjoyable spending my time with these two and very comedic the way they sing along to every song.

It's pretty late already when Camila's parents return. I great them politely, as always. I was about to make my way home. "I probably should head home" I say. "No. We can have a sleepover" Sofi suggests. "No little one, you need to go to bed" Alejandro says. Sofi pouts, just like her sister. "Sorry Sof, next time. Goodnight" I say to Sofi who's already half asleep. "But we can" I hear Camila say. A sleepover with Camila? I don't want to die, I'm too young. She looks at me with puppy dog eyes. "Please?" she says. Sigh. "Let me just tell my parents" I say. I text them quickly and get a quick reply. "Okay sweetie. Love you." But still no reply from Normani, of course.

We go up to Camila's room and she gives me some pajamas, purple unicorns aren't really my thing, but it'll do. I dress in the bathroom and she in her room. No way, I'm going through that again. Not on the same day. I go back to her room and find her already in bed. I climb in next to her. I hear soft snores. Asleep already? She must have been tired. I put my phone on the table next to me and lie down.  

It's about morning, a little light peeking through the curtains. I'm still asleep, dreaming of Camila. But then I hear the real Camila's voice. "Lo, your phone" I hear. I ignore it. "It keeps going off" she says again. "Fine, I'll get it" she says and takes the phone.

"Lauren, what is this?" I hear an angry tone in her voice. I quickly get up and grab my phone.

Manibear: You kissed Camila?!

No, no, no, shit! "You said you wouldn't tell" I see a tear on her cheek. "I- I" I say. Another message comes through. "Let me see that" Camila reaches for my phone. "No" I say. "How does she know that Lauren?" Camila says in a calm but angry voice. "She would never tell anyone" I say. "I asked you a question" she says. I stay quiet. She grabs the phone and reads the next message.

Manibear: Did you tell her? It's about damn time. Me and the girls were starting to get sick of waiting.

"Tell me what?" Camila says. I take the phone back and read the message. "I can't" I say. "You can't what?" Camila almost yells. I say nothing. "Get dressed and go home please" she flips around on the bed, her back turned to me. I get dressed and get ready to leave. "I'm sorry" I say before heading out. Fuck. I really messed up.