My Suck Life

Tired

A week later

I'm tired, everyday it's getting harder to do normal stuff, like walk. I'm tired, I just spend the whole day on my bed, it's getting hard to Bella too, the collateral effects of her chemo are happening and I just wanted to be there for her, but I'm so tired.

I'm skinner and pale too, it's getting harder to breathe too. Quinn and Santana are here and they're talking about something that I'm not paying attention.

"What do you think Rach?" Santana asked me.

"About what?" I said.

"Who is hotter Ashton Kutcher or Jamie Dornan?" Quinn asked.

"Jamie Dornan definitely." I said.

"TOLD YOU!" Santana yelled to Quinn and I laugh.

"Both are really hot, but Jamie is way more." I said and Santana nod.

"Whatever." Quinn said and Santana and I laugh.

"Hey girls, what's up?" Finn asked walking in the room with Puck and Sam.

"Nothing." We three said at the same time.

"Suspicious." Sam said.

"Very." Puck said and we laugh.

"I just have one question for you." Santana said. "Who is the hottest Ashton Kutcher or Jamie Dornan?" 

"Jamie Dornan definitely." Finn said siting next to me and put his arm around my shoulders.

"Good choice babe." I said and we high five.

"Jamie Dornan of course." Sam said.

"Ashton Kutcher." Puck said.

"See, Puck agree with me!" Quinn said and we all laugh.

"Jennifer Lawrence or Margot Robbie?" Puck asked.

"That's tough." Sam said.

"Margot Robbie." Finn and I said at the same time and we all laugh.

"Jennifer Lawrence." Santana said.

"I don't know, it's a impossible choice." Puck said and we all laugh.

"Both are very hot." Finn said and I tap his arm.

"Ouch." He said and everyone laugh. "They are hot, but  you are much more!" He said and we all laugh.

"That's better." I said smiling to him and we kissed lightly and everyone laughed.

We keep talking for awhile and them all of them left, except Finn. I lay on the bed snuggle with him and he was smoothing my back.

"I feel guilty." I said and he look at me confused.

"About?" He asked confused.

"Every afternoon you spend here, I feel guilty to make you waste your time." I said.

"It's not a waste of my time." He said.

"Why not?" I asked surprised.

"Because  I'm with you." He said and kissed my forehead. 

"I love you." I said and he me a half smile.

"I love you too." He said and we kissed.

"I'm tired." I said yawning.

"So go sleep, you need to rest." He said.

"But I don't want to sleep, I'm afraid." I said.

"Afraid of what?" He asked.

"That if I close my eyes, I never open them again." I said and hug me tighter.

"I would never let that happen, you can't get rid of me that easily." Finn said and kissed my forehead. "Babe, now you need to sleep." He said and I snuggle on him and close my eyes.

"I love you." I whisper to him.

"I love you too." He said and we both fall asleep.