I know I'm single, I get it. I'm reminded everyday that i don't have a boyfriend or a love. I know that. But is it so hard to be single. Just once, could I fall into someone's arms and hold them. Can I sit by them and put my head in his shoulder? Can I kiss someone till my teeth rattle? Is that too much to ask. I want to have someone! I'm never going to be the friend who has the high school sweetheart. I'm never going to have a prom date. I'm never going to get asked. Why is it so hard for me to realize that?!? I just want to grab onto the next guy I see and keep them close. I don't want to say it's because of my parents but it could be. I just want a live that I can call my own. I'm tired of waiting on the sideline. I want it to be my turn to get in the game. I hate being the awkward single friend when I know that I would do just fine in a relationship. Am I so pathetic that when I type single my phone automatically has the next word as forever. I'm tired of it. When is it my turn?!? Why can't it happen to me?!? I do everything right. I'm a good person! I help and care for others, I'm generally nice, I have great friends, I'm involved, WHY CANT I FIND MY MAN!!!! It just hurts so bad. I just want to cry every night but I can't. Because then everyone would know, everyone will finally know that I'm miserable. That I'm not as strong as i seem. That I'm weak. But why can't I experience what i see others experience. Why does it happen to everyone else but me. I'm so tired of it. Why can't it be my turn?!?!?!?!
