Delay our misery (Andley) **editing**

chapter ten

“Hello?” Jinxx picked up his phone. “Hi um… it’s Andy, you know the guy from Starbucks?” Andy said bluntly. “Oh hi Andy” Jinxx said happily. “I um… wondered when you guys come over to practice and if Jake and um…” “Christian” Jinxx said. “Yeah Christian showed any interest” Andy said. “They did, they were excited to meet you guys.”  Jinxx said. “Oh that’s great” Andy said happily.

I walked out of the bedroom. I didn’t want to listen anymore. And I didn’t even know why. They didn’t hate me, and I probably would finally be in a band. And though I couldn’t hear it. I didn’t want to hear it. I wasn’t nervous or anything. I just couldn’t listen.

I walked straight over to the bathroom and without thinking I picked up the razor I left yesterday in the cupboard and started sliding it down my wrists. I was completely numb. A few seconds later I realized what I’d done. Fuck, my wrists. Not my thighs, my wrists. Now everybody could see what kind of a worthless kid I am. People would laugh at me. They would be right; I am worthless.

But the most badly; Andy would hate me.

I started crying and slid down the wall. A few minutes later Andy softly knocked on the door. “Hey Ash, is everything okay?” he asked softly. I didn’t trust my voice enough to say yes, so I said nothing. “Ashley? Can I come in?” Andy asked carefully. I didn’t want him to see me like this.

“N-no I-I’m fine” I said. “Ashley are you crying?” Andy asked, now shocked. “N-No I-I’m fine” I said. I accidently let out a sob. I was so stupid.

Andy carefully opened the door.

When he saw me sitting like that; on the floor, with bloody wrists and crying, tears sprung in his eyes. “Ashley” he whispered and ran over to me. He kneeled down next to me. “Ashley what happened?” Andy asked shocked. “I-I’m sorry” I whispered. “A-Ashley” he said “a-is this because of what they said?” he asked. I nodded. “I-I’m so sorry Andy” I sobbed.

Andy just sat down next to me and pulled me in his lap. “Shh… it will be okay Ashy, don’t be sorry” he whispered.

I liked the Ashy-name thing.

Andy twisted my hair around his fingers gently till I fell asleep.

When I woke up I was lying in my bed. Andy sat at the opposite of the bed. He was writing. I carefully sat up. then I remembered what I’d done. I looked down at my wrists. Bandages over them. “Hey Ash” Andy said when he saw that I was awake. “H-hi” I said weakly.

He’d cleaned my wounds, put my pajama on and carried me to the bedroom.

I didn’t even want to think how he’d changed my clothes to my pajama, that was embarrassing. I softly started crying again. “I-I’m so sorry Andy” I whispered and hid my face in my hands. Andy scooted over to me and wrapped his arm around me. “Shh… it’s okay Ashy… its okay” he whispered.

When I calmed down some, Andy studied my arms. “w-what?” I asked weakly. “Have you ever cut yourself before?” Andy asked carefully. I wanted to say no, but I just couldn’t lie to him so I just nodded. “But…” Andy started “where are the scars?” he asked. “H-haven’t you seen them?” I asked. “When?” “When you put on my pajamas?” I asked. Andy shook his head. “T-they’re on my thighs…” I said.

“But Ashley… you’re so beautiful” Andy whispered. “I’m not” I said. “You are” “no really, believe me, I’m not” I said, swallowing back more tears. Andy just sighed silently.

“And um… D-did Jinxx say anything about the practice?” I asked quickly, changing the subject. Andy started smiling a little again.  “Yeah, Christian and Jake really want to meet us Jinxx said, they’re coming over Saturday” he smiled.

A/N:
okay sorry this one wasn't much better :c