That girl

Chapter 3

Every recess, I sit with Courtney, Britney, Sarah, Tanya and some other girls. I can't see Sarah  anywhere, which usually means she's out making out with some idiot whose not good enough for her. Out of the corner of my eye, I see Sarah's long, red hair. She's walking back towards us with her boyfriend, Stephen. She only started dating him last week and they've already made out three times (that I know of). It's how she copes with her breakup with her abusive boyfriend six months ago. 

Everyone has something go wrong in their life, some don't show it, others let it consume them, then there are people like me, who become a b*tch and lash out at other people. Others think I'm just a princess, but what I do is not dissimilar to what others do. Some do self harm, what I do is like that but to others and verbally. I don't know how else to act, it was how I was raised. To put it into perspective, say you grew up listening only to Deaf Leopard, you have heard no other music, you won't say "My favourite band is fall out boy" you couldn't because you haven't listened to it before. My point is that if I don't know how to be nice, then how do I act nice?

Tanya is very girly and wears a lot of pink short things. Today she is wearing a pink crop top with a black, short skirt that cuts off about mid thigh. She has strawberry blonde hair with the ends dyed pink (a/n up the top) and she wears cute circle glasses that fit her face perfectly. I get really jealous of Tanya because of how perfect she looks. She's just so skinny and her outfits are always perfect for her body. I wish I wasn't so fat. The girls keep telling me I'm not fat, but it's hard to get out of you head once you've heard it over, and over, and over again from someone that isn't you. 

"Hey Sydney, that brat and her friends are sitting at our table again" Saran tells me as she walks over, pointing at our table. Maya and her friends are sitting at our table again. She did the same thing last week.  "Hey stick," I call out to her. Everyone calls her stick because she is flat chested and doesn't have much of a butt. "Your sitting at our table again." I say with as much attitude as I can, "Congratulations barbie, you have eyes that you can see out of!" She mocks, her friends start chuckling, I hate it when they laugh. "Aww, nice try sweetheart, but you should work on your insults, you used that one two weeks ago." I say, as if talking to a child that just lost the talent show. "So, what do you want? More money for your Botox?" One of her friends, Lila, starts laughing like her statement was the funniest thing in the world, "Control your horse would you? And no, I did not come for money, I came because this is where me and my friends always sit." I state in a matter-of-fact kind of voice, trying to make it seem really obvious. "Well you and your minions can go sit over there," she gestures towards a corner with no tables or seats, "there are no rules saying that you get to claim this seat, nor have you made a decree saying that you are to sit here every break, have you?" She asks, raising an eyebrow. As I did not want to look weak, I decided to sit right next to her, and gestured for my group to sit down as well. I start spraying perfume over myself, making sure that half of it went in Maya's face. Tanya, catching on to what I was doing, starts putting mass amounts of hairspray in her hair. Sarah starts making out with Stphen again and Courtney starts gossiping. Eventually it becomes too much for Maya and her group and they get up and leave.

I feel quite guilty for doing that, she just wanted to sit at a table and we scared her off. Maybe I should apologise later. I need to hold up the act that I am strong and that I am the boss, if anyone finds out what happens at home, I will be dead.

A/n

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