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Tired Of Hiding

Tired Of Hiding:

i am tired.

i am tired of my mother still

pointing out boys and laughing

when i shake my head

because my sexuality is nothing real to her

and it's just a phase,

just like my suicidal thoughts were just a phase

(they weren't)

like my depression was just a phase

(it wasn't)

like i am just a phase.

i am tired of being so scared

in the locker room

and keeping my eyes down

keeping silent changing faster

than everyone else

because what if they figure it out

what if they find out

what if they hate me even more.

i am tired of being reduced

to nothing but something

for people to get off with and

i am tired of being scared of being myself

because it can get me killed

i am tired because it's not normal to people,

i am tired because when i first realized

i thought i was broken and that

it was wrong and i prayed to god that

it would change but it never did

and i cried myself to sleep thinking

how could i become a member of the church

if i'm not normal.

i am tired because

it's a sin to so many people,

i am tired because i know how much

my grandma will disapprove

if i ever tell her and she will say

"how could you go against your faith like that?"

i am tired.

i am tired of not being able

to live my life

because of the fact

that

i

like

girls.

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This one relates to me, like a lot.

But um, yeah. What do you think of these? Oh and please comment some ideas that I should write about; getting lost on what to write.