- broken wings // chaennie

Not a party girl.

"After a week of constant stress and indecisiveness I, jennie kim, have finally got an outfit for tonight" I proudly announce as I hold up my amazing outfit in front of Irene, she applauds it very passionately. "If chaeyoung doesn't fall for you after tonight then I might" we both laugh and continue getting ready for the party.

This will be my first ever house party which is quite sad to admit, the only knowledge i have of parties is from movies and stories i've heard from Irene  which make parties sound quite terrifying but i try to forget about that and focus on the fact that she will be there. my plan is to at least talk to her once and try my best to avoid alcohol because i embarrass myself enough whilst sober never mind whilst drunk.  oh god what if i look like a weirdo if i don't drink... i'm deep in thought when irene snaps me out of it "we should probably hurry up or we'll be late"

we arrive at taeyeons house (which is much larger than i had expected) we went and got a drink. i decided that if i was at least holding a drink i would seem normal.  so far no sign of her yet. i stood in a random corner chatting to irene and looking at all of the familiar faces in the room, i see most of these people in the halls but i've never really spoken to most. it takes me moment to notice kang seulgi standing across the room and when i do i nudge irene and whisper "i spot your girlfriend"

"shes not my-" when she looks up she frowns and i raise an eyebrow before i can ask whats wrong i realise who's with seulgi, its no other than minatozaki sana. the schools  biggest flirt. and her target for tonight seems to be seulgi even though she still with momo. i put my hand on irenes shoulder "don't worry, she wont be dumb enough to fall for sanas tricks again"

the night goes slowly and i almost give up looking for her when suddenly i hear someone call my name. i instantly recognise the sweet voice and turn to see a smiling chaeyoung. we talk for a little while although its almost like were shouting due to the now very loud music. im too distracted at first to realise there was a argument going on behind me but soon the whole party notices and that's what everyone is watching. including myself.

a very drunk looking seulgi is shouting at a smug looking sana, seulgi is almost crying at this point and she almost leaps at sana but luckily irene and myself grab her before she does anything dumb and move her somewhere else. we find a quiet room (we did find what seemed to be a quiet room before but it had a couple of guests making themselves a bit too comfortable in the bed).  we sit her on the bed and she cries as irene wraps her arm around her to comfort her. "i'm so dumb" she sniffles and slowly calms down. i decide its probably best for me to let irene take care of this and i slip out to go find  chaeyoung again.

- Irene's POV -

i'm sat with a drunk and emotional seulgi which was not how i had pictured this night going. i try my best to comfort her and she stops crying making the room completely silent. "i cant believe i thought sana actually cared about my feelings" she finally speaks and breaks the silence between the two of us "love can make you do dumb things sometimes" she looks at me and sighs "but i don't love her. i love you, bae joohyun. but i'm too scared of rejection that i try to ignore my feelings and for you and fake them for sana which makes me almost as bad as her" all of this comes out in a big drunken mess but i hear it all clearly and i don't quite realise what i'm doing because it so unlike myself, maybe it was the alcohol or the random rush of adrenaline i feel, i don't know. but i kiss her and she doesn't pull away. it feels almost perfectly right. its as if our lips were made to connect like this. after a few second i pull away and look at her, she smiles shyly at me. i hope she isn't too drunk that shell forget this. "i love you too, kang seulgi"

we head back out to join the rest of the party after seulgi has seemed to sober up a little. somehow she persuades me to dance with her which i would normally never do but i decided to just go with it. her body moved as if she and the music were one. there's something so beautiful about her when she dances, she looks so charismatic. i try my best to keep up with her but its hard. i end u giving up and dance in my own weird way which makes her giggle. everything about her is cute especially when she giggles. i really am in love with kang seulgi and now she knows and i hope she still knows tomorrow. i don't want to be scared of the what ifs anymore. i want to make her mine. i will make her mine. i will prove to jennie that i'm not a coward anymore.

- jennie's POV -

i cant seem to find chaeyoung anywhere and soon i just stand in a corner alone like a loner. i stare at the plastic cup in my hand when i hear someone clear their throat. when i look up a familiar looking red headed male is in front of me "um hey" he says as he awkwardly smiles  and i remember him from history class, he's lee taeyong.

taeyong has quite a few female admirers which is understandable, hes very good looking. if i was straight i'd probably have a crush on him. hes also part of one of the more popular groups but unlike most teen dramas they're actually quite nice. I've spoken to jaeyun, another boy in the group and he even helped me with some homework i couldn't understand.

i smile at him politely "hi" i respond almost as awkwardly as he did. we spend the next while chatting and i learn that he's quite funny. he tells me about how hard being the mother of his friend group is, he talks about everyone so fondly as if they were his real children and i find it cute. an hour passes so quick and we even exchange numbers but hes soon dragged away to go help one of his drunk friends who looks way too young to be at one of these parties.

i eventually find irene and take her and the slightly less drunk seulgi home in Irene's car (she had something to drink but luckily i hadn't). when i get home i hear my phone go off but i don't have the energy to look at it so i just get changed and went to bed. all i have learned from this night is i am definitely not a party girl. maybe its due the pounding headache i have because of the obnoxiously loud music that played for most of the party that i instantly pass out as soon as my had hits my pillow. maybe ill see her in my dreams once again tonight.