Cycle

Cycle (2/2)

You managed to debut with everyone. Your team received more negative comments than positive ones because people doubted an idol group with a lot of members could stand longer in entertainment industry. They even looked at your group as only a bunch of pretty guys with no talents. All of you felt hurt, but it's became a fire trigger for you all to work even harder. All members worked hard on their own area without forgetting to bring Super Junior name. Your Hyungs like Leeteuk (Jungsu), Heechul, and Kangin were working hard as MC and actors and told you all to wait behind as they worked hard to make paths for their younger brothers.

You felt a bit lonely since it's so rare to meet your bog bros but you assured yourself that you still had Hyukjae with you. Sometimes you're a little hurt when he left you behind to hang out or practice dancing with Donghae, but as long as he came to your room and still shared his thought about anything to you back then you're okay.

Along the times, you're (forced) to grow up. You understood that all members of super junior were people who had endured much to achieve their goals. But depending what they chose as their goals, they changed like you and him. You're all like brothers. Thicker than blood. But had different path. As long as you walked together and had a time to breath and looked to each other eyes even it's for a short time, you're okay. As long as Hyukjae was one of them.

You almost felt like losing him after Donghae's father passed away. You felt pity with the younger to lose his own father with such a young age. You understood that he became so attached toward all members but it didn't mean he could take Hyukjae from you for all his own. What you could do? Taking Hyukjae back? You're not a bad person like that. Both of you started to drift apart. Yes. But it wouldn't happen if it's not reciprocated. You couldn't blame Donghae if Hyukjae found comfort and felt needed with him than you who tent to hide your own problem and rarely share it with him.

You started to not feel lonely since Kyuhyun came to your world as a new member of super junior. At first, all members weren't too happy with an addition member idea. 12 members was already too much so how 13 members could make for? It's meant every member's part of singing and chances to be caught by camera became shorter. Most of members gave a cold shoulder and it's included Hyukjae whom this time only responded if you called him Eunhyuk instead of Hyukjae. But you liked this new youngest member and even shared your bed with him before he got his own. It's not because you felt a pity on him but he looked as lonely and shy as you. You felt like you got a new brother to take care for since another one had brave enough to adventure this cruel world alone without you anymore.

You became closed with the youngest and you felt special because you felt needed. Sometimes you even didn't realize when the last time Hyukjae jumped to your bed and hugged you because you're too focus with mothering Kyuhyun while he's too busy DJ-ing Sukira with Leeteuk. But this closeness had slowly changed too after Company announced Super Junior'05 changed to be an official group that there would be no more addition after Kyuhyun joined. Kyuhyun finally found his place in Super Junior after they win first place in Music Bank. You're still his favorite big brother, you thought it yourself but it's only until that accident which almost took his life if fate would have allowed it. All members realized how important he was and how they loved him. All of them cried and prayed (included Hyukjae) for his consciousness. Even Yesung promised he could teased him all he wanted if he woke up from his comma. Once he woke up, everything changed as easy as you flipped your hand. He's become all members favorite little brother and slowly he's not so fond about you anymore.

Where are you? Can't you see my tired body?

My pained heart is looking for youIs calling out to you – crazily