My Last Year..

Chapter 32: Bludgeoned

*Flashback*

I Watch Her As She Pours Crown Into Her Cup Along With Other Alcoholic Beverages And Eye Her Closely As Casually Takes Another Gulp Of Her Strong Concoction... She Looks Away From Her Task And Looks Towards Me.. She Smiles But It Doesn't Quite Reach Her Eyes..

"You Want Some?" She Ask Moving Her Cup Towards Me.. I Look At Her Carefully Trying to Read Her Expression But She Gives Away Nothing.. I Gingerly Grab The Cup.. I Sniff It And It Smells Harsh Yet Sweet And It Burns My Nose.. I Look Up From The Cup To Look At Her.. And She Pulls Out A Liter.. My Hands Tighten Around The Cup And My Body Tenses As I Watch Her With The Liter.. She Pulls Out A Cigarette And Slowly Lights It Taking A Deep Inhale As She Looks In My Direction Again.. "Are You Gonna Drink Some?" She Ask Blowing Smoke At Me Obviously Irritated By My Stalling.. I Slowly Bring The Cup To My Mouth And Take A Large Gulp... It Burns My Throat And I Stutter And Cough.. But It Taste Good.. The Different Flavors Mixing As One... I Take Another Gulp And Another.. Gradually Feeling Fuzzier With Each Drink... I Like It.. I Imagine The Many Times I've Her With These Drinks.. I Set The Cup Down My Stomach Becoming Unsettled At The Thoughts Of What Happens After She Drinks A Few Of These Painfully Delicious Drinks.. My Mind Is Fuzzy And I'm Having trouble Comprehending I Think She's Speaking To Me... "Hey You!" She Snaps Her Fingers At Me.. "Did You Hear Me?!" She Sounds Angry.. I Hate a When She's Angry.. I Slowly Shake My Head Afraid Of Her Reaction.. "Get Me An Ashtray Before I Use Your Face As One!" She Motions Her Cigarette At Me And I Flinch Backwards.. She Chuckles As My Chair Slightly Moves With My Body.. I Quickly Get Up and Find A Ashtray And Hastily Put It Next To Her And Move Out If The Way Protecting My Body From Any Damage From The Fire At The End Of Her Finger Tips.. She Puts Out Her Cigarette And Stares At Me With A Wicked Smile.. She Looks Intimidating Almost Menacing... "Give Me Back My Drink!" She Snaps At Me And I Quickly Grab The Cup.. My Mind Is Still Fuzzy and My Hands Are Shaking... " Could You Go A Bit Quicker I Have Better Things To Do Than Watch Play With Your Speedometer" I Walk Quicker To Her And I Get Beside Her The Table On My Left And Her On My Right And Just As I'm Handing It To Her My Hands Have A Total Muscle Spasm Spilling Her Drink Down Her Blouse And Dropping The Cup So It Hits The Floor And Breaks With Loud Crash.. My Eyes Widen And I Frantically Get Paper Towels.. "I'm So Sorry! I Didn't Mean To- I Just- I Don't Know-" I Quickly And Carefully Attempt To Pick Up The Glass With Out Cutting Myself... I Look Up And Shes Staring Down At Her Cleavage Area Now Soaking The Mixture She Made Not Even 25 Minutes Ago.. Her Eyes Are Dark Full Of Something I've Experienced.. My Body Tenses And My Throat Feels Like I Swallowed A Large Bouncy Ball.... She Quickly Get Up And Leaves The Room.. I Know Where She's Going... I Finish With The Glass And Sit Quietly.. I Know What's Coming... But Am I Prepared For It... My Hands Are Shaking... My Breath Quickening.. She Emerges In The Door Way Hands Behind Her Back... "I've Got A Surprise For You.." A Sly Smile Creeping Onto Her Face.. "Maybe After This You'll Learn To Be More Careful With Glass." She Steps Forward But Her Hands Stay Where They're At.. I Feel My Heart Beat In My Chest Wondering What's Behind Her Back... I Lean And Try To See.. "Anxious Are We?" She Ask As She Adjust Moving So I Have No View Whatsoever As To The Object In Her Hand.. "If I Were You I Wouldn't Be Very Anxious.." She Moves Her Hands From Behind Her Back And She's Holding An Extension Cord.. At First I'm Puzzled.. "What?" I Whisper To Myself.. And Then I Finally Put It Together... I Frantically Try To a Find A Way To Escape... There's A Door To My Left About 4 Feet Away.. She Raises Her Hand And I Quickly Turn Towards The Door.. And Just As I Reach It.. The Extension Cord Comes Down Hard Across My Back Sending Pain Through All My Nerves Causing Me To Collapse In Front Of The Door.. And A Unexpected Scream Leaves My Mouth.. I Feel The Hit Again But In A Different Place.. I Scream Again... I Feel The Hits Over And Over... "Jas!" I Hear Her Shout.. And The Hits Stop "Jas!" She Shouts Again But It Sounds Different... "Jas! Wake Up!" This Time I Feel Someone Shaking Me.. My Eyes Flutter Open.. And I Wake Up In A Cold Sweat.. I See Derrick Looking Down At Me With a Terrified Look In His Eyes... He's In Nothing But Boxers.. And I'm In A Tank Top And Shorts.. "Are You Ok?" He Ask A Little Bit Of Relief Reaching His Eyes.. And He Relaxes.. "You Were Screaming..." He Says Softly.. "Sorry" I Mutter "It Was Just A Nightmare.. I'll Be Ok" He Turns To Leave Back To His Room.. "Wait!" I Call Out To Him.. And He Turns To Face Me.. "Will You Stay With Me Please?" He Looks At Me Surprised And Reluctantly Nods His Head And Leaves To Retrieve His Pajama Bottoms..

He Gently Wraps One Arm Around Me.. And I Lay Against His Chest... Still Shaken From My NightMare..

A Tear Slowly Escapes My Eye As I Remember The Excruciating Pain That I Felt In The Dream..

I'm Slowly Indulged In His Scent And The Pain Is Forgotten.. The Nightmare Just A Spec I'm My Memory.. Theres Something About Him... He's More.. He's Better... Him.. I Can Think Of Nothing Else...

"What Is He Doing To Me.?" I Whisper Before I Gently Drift Back To A More Peaceful Sleep..

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