Im conflicted

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by Dust-Chan

by Dust-Chan

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Ok I just wanna start off my saying: My Bff L is gonna go see Hamilton and we both started crying because I can't see it with her D:

Ok serious now.

So I asked L to tell my crush I liked him. Even though he probably already knows.

"Oof. Uh crap." She said over the FaceTime.

"What?" I responded.

"I was told not to tell you." She bit her lip.

"Ok and? We tell each other everything." I laughed.

"M really really like C. The only reason she hasn't asked him out yet is because she knows you like him."

I felt myself getting torn. She likes him? What if he likes her? What if he never even liked me to begin with? What if-

"Dust? You good?"

"Huh? Ok yeah." I looked at my script for a musical I'm in.

"You hate her don't you?"

My eyes widened. "No! Of course not. I'm just scared."

"That's why you need to ask him out! Get your hands on him before anybody else can!" She replied.

"Yeah, but-

"He obviously likes you. Stop asking me to be your wing woman and just ask him out. He actually got you a ring for your marriage hat lasted a day ya know. He just didn't give it to you because he divorced you the next day."

I have no contact with him. Only through L. M does. I don't know what to do. Im worried that M will get his hands on him. I can't go back to being in an Angelica situation. I can't go back to standing around and smiling and pretending that I don't like him anymore. I can't just stop flirting with him. And I can't just stop blushing whenever he does something that flusters me. And I can't just let him go.

How do I fix this? All the communication I have with C is through L.