spin the bottle

chapter 13

in the morning Tyler didn't speak much to me but I convinced myself that its just because he is nervous about going back home. We caught the bus from the hotel to his mums house. The house was very tidy and kept clean, it wasn't big but wasn't small. I rung the doorbell and Tyler tightly grabbed my hands for support. 

 "Don't worry everything's going to be fine!" I reassured him. The door swung open and a man answered, His face tells of a lean body beneath his wintry garb and his expression is serious but not unkind. "Tyler good to see you and is this your girlfriend gosh isn't she beautiful!" he said shaking my hand. "Me and your mother are so pleased you've came and I cant wait for you to meet your baby sister!"

Tyler didn't say much and he kept his hand in my hand.  we followed Ste( Tyler's mums boyfriend) into the house and we found Tyler's mum rocking a little baby in her arms, she looked tired her hair was short and she was still in her dressing gown. Her face lit up when she saw me and Tyler and offered us to sit down. "Ty I didn't think you was going to come!" But Tyler ignored her and continued looking at the floor. "This is your baby sister- Thea!" the Baby  was small, bold and pink. His mum asked Tyler if he would like to hold Thea but he declined so I held her instead. her hands were delicate. She feels so light, looks so perfect and smells so divine. She slept softly and I felt a little tug at my heart. "Tray loves his new born sister, every night before she goes to sleep he likes to read her a story they've got such a great bond!" his mom chirped. Thea started crying "She must hungry!" his mum said handing me the bottle but Tyler snatched it from her hand. "Can I?" he asked quietly. I nodded and passed him the baby.

Their eyes meet with each other as Thea sucked on her bottle, Thea's smile was as sweet as a summer strawberry and filled me with a sunshine and I swear I saw a little tear fall from Tyler's eye. "Would you two like to join us for breakfast?" Ste asked popping his head round the door. That's when Tyler went back to being cold. "No thanks!" he said passing the baby back to his mum.

"Please don't go not so soon!" His mother begged.

"Its great to meet my sister but that doesn't change anything about us. I'm not just going to pretend like nothing happened and I'm not going to pretend to like you so don't do the same!" Tyler said walking towards the door. "I mean you still haven't asked me a single question about myself because you don't care!"

"Tyler when are you going to stop giving us a hard time!" Ste yelled

Tyler rolled his eyes and grabbed me by arm. "Come on lets go!" I would of preferred for us to stay for breakfast and talk things out with his parents but it was obvious Tyler wasn't ready so I agreed to leave. I quickly waved goodbye to Ste and Tyler's mum before catching up with Tyler.

"I told you I didn't want to come but you had to push me and get all in my business, seriously just fuck off and leave me alone!" Tyler hissed and pushed my train ticket into my chest. So I guess were going our separate. I caught the train by myself and I literally cried the whole way. Why do I keep doing this to myself? I need to seriously just forget about Tyler for good. But its so hard, why is it so hard? 

I felt a hand rub my arm and I looked up to see Tyler. "Don't cry Ocean!" he said softly.

"Don't cry? Tyler you talk and treat me like shit and expect me not to get emotional from time to time cant you see I'm only trying to make you happy and be your friend." I said whipping my tears.

"That's the point I don't just want to be friends I want you to be mine! When I'm around you I get these strong emotions and feelings and they scare me, so I tell myself if I'm mean to you perhaps they're stop and go away but they don't. It  breaks me to see you upset or crying it really does. I want you not just sexually... I know I don't do relationships but I want one with you... I don't know what do to do Ocean." he said brushing my cheek with his finger.

"Why didn't you tell me before?" I cant believe Tyler just admitted he had feelings for me.

"Because if I admit I have feelings for you then its harder to get rid of them and I don't want you to judge me!"

"Judge you? Come on Tyler you know I like you too and I wouldn't of judged you!" I laugh pulling him in for a kiss. it was a long kiss and real kiss.