behind your eyes

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So focused on what the teacher was saying, I kept taking notes and listening to every little detail about every little thing that she said.
I was so concentrated that I almost forgot how to breathe. Suddenly a ringing was heard and it saved me from hell. I might be nerdy but I sure as hell hate school. I could finally breathe now that I'm free . I heard the kids messing with me and laughing 'cause I asked too many questions during the class to understand the whole thing. Who gives a fuck, right?? Everyone got out of the class in a jiffy and I was still writing what was on the board, after another 10 minutes I got out of my seat and straight out of the class. I was walking in the halls when my friend Harper came towards me laughing her ass off with her boyfriend. "Wassup girl!?" I sighed "Biology is gonna be the end of me. UGHH" I said "biology's fine you're just too engaged" I rolled my eyes at her "good to know" after a few seconds of silence she suddenly jumped "oh! I almost forgot. You've been so depressed lately and that's why you're coming to a party with me this weekend" I looked at her for a few seconds as a sign for her to go on... "Austin's hosting. and we'll have to go shopping, your closet sucks" wow thanks Harper. I actually did need some fun and that's why I agreed to go.
It was Friday, meaning I'll have to go shopping tomorrow and I hope the party will be worth all the money I'm gonna spend on my clothes.
School went by quick and I got on my bike, Harper always leaves with his boyfriend Tyler. I'd rather ride my bike and burn calories than being a third wheel in that car.
I kept cycling and cycling and overthinking about everything and anything. The autumn breeze hit my face making my hair flow in the air as a listened to some music with my headphones. I finally arrived at my destination and saw Tyler's car already parked in front of the apartment , I got off my bike and went inside. As I got in the elevator I was still lost in the music. Although I wasn't listening to it anymore it kept replaying in my head. I was singing the words to it silently 'cause I don't want anyone to hear me and embarrass myself. Music's always been a part of me, It feels magical. I play piano in an orchestra right now, the feeling I have when I lay my fingers on the keys is certainly the best feeling and the best time of my life. I've been playing piano for 12 years now. I also play cello , I started playing cello when I was 13. I would love to say i sing but I suppose I don't?...
I love singing but my family and all of my friends have always told me that my voice sounds terrible and I should shut up, my passion for singing slowly faded away because I got really insecure about it. No one's heard me singing for 3 years now. I hope no one will. I don't wanna ashame myself.
The doors to the 8th floor opened and I walked out. I searched for my keys in my bag and after what felt like a decade I found them and squealed in happines. I unlocked the door and was met with these too teenagers making out on the couch. "Jeez, would you two mind getting a room for once in your lives?!" I almost yelled. They giggled and I went straight to my room and rolled my eyes for the hundredth time today. Thank God I'm single
#teamsingleforever