ITS TIME

Chapter 2

     

          We drove pass houses. I could see little kids playing outside and their mothers looking after them.

My memories kept coming in. All I could feel was anger.

I thought "they would never be as unhappy as I would be. They will never experience the same thing I'm going through.'' I thought.

     'I wish they knew what It feels like to have grown into this thing I am'                                                'I wish they could feel my pain every day or at least try to remember to'                                                           'I wish they would feel the physical wounds in my body that hurt every time I touch them'

     I slowly started to doze off. shutting down every part of my body until it was numb. and closed my worn eyes.

     While asleep I was thinking about my unpleasant thoughts on how other people should get my illness.

I don't think that I'm cruel by thinking this. I just don't want to be alone...

     I cant live like this forever someone has to find a cure or else I might injure something more than a dog. I could kill people and that includes my own family.

   I'm starting to remember a few things. I pay close attention to my dreams. There might be something in my past to find. And I did find "something".

    At first when I was starting to fall asleep. I remember thinking about scientists making other people get my deceases. Then it got deeper into the fact that I want people to live the same as me. I felt bad... but I can't stop. I saw this person. A woman like me. "Fainting... because... men..." I felt like I was loosing my breath.

I saw blackness. Nothing but black. I felt like I got hit in the head with my own body. If you know how that feels like. It feels like passing out. I passed out..

The blood in my veins started to rush. It felt like running in a forest with no trees, no grass, no leaves. It was a dark void but I felt my surroundings even thought there weren't any. I saw a light. I kept running and running to it, but I couldn't reach it. The light seemed to not exist. No beginning no end. It felt like a loophole.

After of what I thought was hours of being stuck, I felt exhausted and started to fall asleep.

I woke up with a groan on my bedroom floor. I guess I had a really bad dream, but I don't even remember sleeping at all. I don't remember anything. I forgot my memories, I don't remember my birthday, address, number, nothing.

I sat up and grabbed my phone from its charger.

"That's weird..." I said peculiarly. It was 100%.
I left my phone at the table and took a look at my house. It was spotless. I cleaned myself up and changed clothes from what was in my closet.

I took a look outside and saw a perfectly trimmed backyard.

"With flowers...?"

I looked at this small square area with confusion. It just felt weird. I just couldn't figure it out.

Why would I? Why would anyone place soil so unevenly in the land. It would've looked amazing if I had a garden in the corner.

Days passed

Elenour was ravaging through different drawers to find what exactly?

"Aha! I found it" Elle said with excitement.

It was a pack of blue perennial flower seeds.

I love blue flowers, it would suit the backyard nicely. I pulled the weird wildflowers from the garden patch and sprinkled the seeds carelessly and watered them.

I did my normal routine of doing nothing and exploring the house of any new experiences of memory. Then went to sleep.

The next day I woke up and checked my plants and they grew massively. It grew 2x bigger than the original soil patch. So I pulled some roots out to make it look fresh and cleaned and then I found weird flesh.

I felt disgusted but was eager to dig up what was in it.

I haven't even dug for 5 minutes and I see a dog skeleton. The flesh half eaten and the body swarmed by bugs. I buried it back to keep myself from throwing up. I ran inside.

I checked my phone and there was nothing on it. I'd thought I'd have a friend to talk to or anything to do. Everyday I check this device hoping something would pop up but no. It's like checking the empty fridge every 10 minutes thinking that you'd suddenly get food.

Then...

The phone rang.