Andy Calder

Louis... No... LIAM?!

"You can't make her leave! We are supposed to have another month and a half with her! Louis you can't do this to us!" Niall cries out.

"It's not my choice Niall," Louis says with sadness clear in his eyes.

Everyone goes quiet. I refuse to make eye contact with any of them.

"Andy, are you okay?" Harry asks.

"I should have known better than I think something good could finally happen to me," I say just above a whisper.

I stand up and make my way away from the table, keeping my eyes glued to the floor.

"Andy wait!" Louis tried calling after me.

But I didn't respond. I just kept going to my room, closing the door behind me when I get there.

I pull my suitcase out from the closet and start throwing my clothes back in it. I can hear the guys arguing down stairs about me leaving. I grab my back pack that I brought as my carry on and put two pairs of clothes and a flashlight in it. I toss on Zayn's sweatshirt that he have me and put my phone in the pocket.

Quietly, I slip out of my room and downstairs, careful not to be seen by the guys. I sneak out the door and run down the sidewalk.

When I think I'm far enough, I put my skateboard down and start riding it. I pass a lot of places that need to be fixed up, but I finally spot a play ground. I stop and walk over to a bench.

I use my phone to start recording a video.

"Hey YouTube, so I know you wanted me to sing One Direction's hit song What Makes You Beautiful, but I can't do that. I am still going to sing for you, but it is going to be Perfect by P!nk. Sorry if you don't know that song. But here it goes," I say, pulling in a deep breath.

"Made a wrong turn once or twice, dug my way out blood and fire. Bad decisions, that's alright. Welcome to my silly life. Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood, Miss 'no way it's all good' it didn't slow me down. Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated, look I'm still around," I pause," pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel like you're less than less than perfect. Pretty, pretty please if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing, you are perfect to me."

I keep going, tears filling my eyes with every word.

"The whole worlds scared, so I swallow my fear. The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer. So cool in line and we try try try, but we try to hard and it's a waste of my time. Done looking for the critics cause their everywhere they don't like my jeans they don't get my hair. Change ourselves and we do it all the time. Why do we do that, why do I do that? Why do I do that?" I speak the last line then explode into the next word of the song.

I finish the song and wipe away the tears.

"Guys, don't let the world try to change you. They don't know the real you." I say before ending the video.

I ride my board into town and find a coffee shop that is still open and has free wifi. I walk in and buy a hot chocolate before sitting at a table and uploading my video.

At about 9 pm I leave the shop and keep heading away from the apartment.

I can't go back there. They want to ship me away. I should have known better than to think they actually liked me. I'm such an idiot!

I shake my head and keep moving forward. My phone starts going off in my pocket. I pull it out and see Zayn's name flashing across my screen. I send him to voicemail. Next Niall's name pops up. Then Harry's, then Louis', and even Liam's. But I never saw El's.

They finally give up after leaving me 3 voicemails each.

I call my voicemail and type in the passcode. First was Zayn.

"Andy, where are you? I went to your room and you weren't there. Are you okay? Please tell me you are okay. At least send me a text please," he says before hanging up.

Then Niall.

"Anders! Please come back. We aren't letting El take you away from us, we just aren't so please come back so we know you are safe, we already-" he got cut off.

Then Harry.

"Andy! Are you okay? Where are you? We are coming to get you, stay put," then he hung up.

Louis and Liam say the same thing as the other two. It was the very last voicemail I got that surprised me. It was from Liam.

"Andy, please come back. All the boys are worried, heck I'm worried. I know we didn't get off to a good start, but I never really wanted you to leave. Please come back," he begs me before hanging up.

I decide to send a text to Zayn.

To Zaynie:

Don't worry, I'm fine. I just needed some air. I will be home later, don't wait up.

Send.

I guess I should start heading back. It's a good thug I just went in a straight line.

My phone buzzes in my pocket.

From Zaynie:

Thank God you are okay!! Please come home soon, we are all worried.

I let a little smile show before shoving the phone into my pocket and pushing my skateboard as hard as I can.

I snuck back into the house around midnight, trying to not wake anyone up. Liam was on the couch watching TV. He glanced over his shoulder when he heard the door close. Before I knew what was happening, he was off the couch and hugging me.

"Don't ever scare us like that again! Now you better go up and tell Zayn you are alright cause he was about to kill Louis earlier," he said in my ear.

So I did just that. I walked up the stairs and stopped at Zayn's room. Knocking softly before I open the door. No one is in there. I go to my room and open the door.

I walk in and see Niall and Zayn snuggled together, phones next to their ears, dried tears on their faces.

I pull out my phone and take a quick picture before moving toward them. I give them each a peck on the head.

"I never want to leave you two," I whisper.

I back out of the room and go back down stairs. Liam is still watching TV.

"Can I crash on the couch? Ziall took my bed," I say to Liam.

"Who's Ziall?" he asks.

"Zayn and Niall," I laugh.

He laughs too. He sets up the couch for me then heads off to bed, stopping half way up the stairs.

"I'm glad you came back Andy," and with that he left.

I'm glad I came back too Liam.