Andy Calder

Hazzy

So, I guess rolling up in a ball was a bit of an exaggeration, but when you get shoved to the ground everyday at school, instincts kick in.

"Oh my God, Andy, are you alright?? I'm so sorry," Harry rushed to help me up.

"It's fine, I'm alright," I smiled.

"Then why are you crying?" He asked, wiping a couple tears off my cheeks.

"Just a couple bad memories," I shrugged.

He smiled and led me over to the couch.

"Look, Andy, I really didn't mean to knock you down," Harry said.

Here it goes, fake smile. Hold back the real feelings.

"I can see through your fake smile. Wanna tell me what's wrong?" he asked.

Ok... Plan B. Shut. Up.

I shook my head and looked at the floor.

"Come on Andy you can tell me anything! I'm really good at keeping secrets," he smiled, flashing his obvious dimples.

Don't give in. Last time you opened your ugly mouth you ruined everything.

Again, I shook my head. Out of the corner of my eye I saw his facial expressions drop.

"I'm awake, but I don't want to get up. I'm tired, but I don't want to sleep. I'm alive, but I don't want to live. I'm me, but I don't want to be," I said, just slightly above a whisper.

I let him think through what I said.

"I'm awake, and I'm forced to get up. I'm tired, and I'm forced to sleep. I'm alive, and I'm forced to live. I'm me, but I'm forced to be society," he replied.

I slowly lifted my head up to meet his eyes. His mouth was in a tight line and his fists were clenched.

"Andy, let me tell you something not many people know about me. I have an anger issue. I geet upset about some of the stupidest things, but to me they aren't stupid at all. When people tell me it's a stupid reason, I get mad about that too. I never really understood how to control my anger, so I hid it," he said shyly.

"I know how that feels. I hide my feelings all the time," I say with a small smile.

He tried smiling back but I knew he just didn't have it in him.

"Wanna hear a joke? It always cheers me up," I smile for real this time.

He just shrugs and keeps his eyes on the floor.

"Knock, knock," I smile.

"Who's there?" he responds on instinct.

"Cows," I try to hold back my laughter.

"Cows who?" he asks confused.

"NO!! COWS MOO!!!" I yell.

He bursts out into laughter. Literally, rolling on the floor laughing. I can't help but laugh at his sillyness. When he finally calms down, he sits back on the couch with me.

"Now Harry, whenever you feel mad or upset, just think of that joke. Ok?" I ask with a smile.

He nods and pulls me in for a hug. I don't respond at first, but soon I hug back. It's kinda weird having people I just met hug me, but I'm getting used to it.

He let's go of me and I turn on the TV. For some reason Disney Junior was on. I give Harry a look of question.

"Lux was over yesterday," he says.

"Um, who's Lux?" I ask.

He turns to me, his eyes wide.

"You're not a Directioner.... GUYS!!!" He yells.

I cover my ears and curl up into a ball. I have been over this torture during school many times. I know what to expect.

I hear the pouding of footsteps get closer until they stop. 

"Guys, Andy here isn't a directioner...," I hear Harry say.

"Really?!" someone says with shock evident in their voice. 

"Finally!! A girl that hasn't heard all the rumors about us!" Niall says wiith cheer.

"That's not true," I say, standing up and facing the five clueless boys and my sister. 

I smirk as i walk toward them. I point at Harry.

"You, are a cheeky, man whore," I roll my eyes and his smile falls.

I point to Niall next.

"You, are the ugly, untalented boy that doesnt belong in One Direction," I can't even fake a smile when I see the tears fill his eyes.

I point to Liam next.

"You are the responsible one," I say quickly.

Zayn next.

"You are the boy that smokes and breaks every single one of your fan's hearts," I say.

Louis braces himself as I point to him.

"You are the immature boy that can't sing to save his life," I shake my head in disbelief. 

El looks at me as I point to her.

"and you, you are the slut that took Louis off the market and are only dating him for attention," I shake my head harder.

They all stare at me.

"I have heard every single rumor about you guys, but the difference between all those other girls and me, is that I don't believe any of those rumors. I get to know people, and so far, none of you have showed me that those rumors are true. Except maybe Liam, but I don't know him that well yet," I smile.

Zayn walks away without saying a word. Everyone else gives me a hug then walks away. I smile after they all leave and begin to explore the gigantic 2 floor flat the boy's call home. 

I walk upstairs and see a door at the end of the hall leading to a balcony. I open the french doors and walk out to the railing. The sun is just starting to set over the water. I pull a metal chair closer to the railing and sit down. 

"Cause when the sun goes down, we'll be groovin'. When the sun does down, we'll be feelin' alright. When the sun sinks down, over the water, everything gets hotter when the sun goes down," I sing to myself.

"I see you like Kenny Chesney," someone says from the doorway.

I jump a litttle and turn around to see who it is, onkly to be shocked with who I see.

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(A/N)

SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT!!!

once school got out I immediately went to Europe for 2 weeks. then i was home for 1 week and then I left for another 2 weeks to visit New York and Massechusettes. and now im back but i leave again this weekend to go to Wisconsin!! I promise i will update later today, later this week, and next week when i get back. I swear!!

So how do you like the story so far?? 

~gabby