Over The Rainbow

Chapter 8: From Here

*Terrence's POV*

My heart felt like it was about to beat out of my chest. I don't know if what was being told to me was the truth. My mom is gone, and she's not coming back. I'm losing everything because of this decision I chose to make with my life. It so hard to be a happy gay black male.

I felt like everything was going wrong for me all because I wanted to be happy. "Baby I'm so sorry.." Antwan said caressing my head. I sat there on the floor crying like a baby. He picked me up and carried me to our room. We both got dressed and we got in the car with Leonardo and my dad. Leonardo looked back at me crying and he placed his hand on my knee, and said "your much too young to be dealing with this ... I'm so sorry you have to go through but we're definitely here for you."

I buried my face in Antwan's jacket and started bawling my eyes out.

*Play Song At the top here *

We pulled up to my old house and we seen all the police and ambulance and corners there. I hopped out the car before it stopped moving. "Tee!" Antwan yelled. I ran in the house and the police stopped me "son don't go in there." I then yelled "that's my mom Mann.." I broke loose and I seen her laying there against the cabinet with my baby pictures at her feet.

I kneeled down and cupped my face and started crying harder. Antwan, Leonardo, and my dad ran in and Antwan grabbed me and comforted me. One of the police officers walked up to me with his hat off and he looked at me with tears in his eyes. "Mr. Terrence I am so sorry for your loss." He gave me a pat on the shoulder as I continued crying.

Antwan lead me out the house holding me. My life changed drastically after that night. My dad was extremely devastated , and Leonardo was rubbing him on the back. We all got back in the truck and we rode home in silence. We pulled up home and I ran in the house bawling my eyes out.

*Antwan's POV*

I don't know what to do right now. He is devastated, and I'm really scared. I got out the car trying not to
Cry and I walked in the house and he was laying across the bed bawling out. "Baby..?" I said while rubbing him. "Yesss ??" He said looking up at me
As if he really just wanted all of this to end.

"Why Mann.. what did I do." He said while I walked up consoling him. "Babe .. you didn't do anything wrong okay... I promise you didn't ." He squeezed me so tight it's like I could feel everything he was feeling. How could someone so young deal with these things. I'm extremely speechless and scared at this point .

He collapsed in my arms and began bawling. I began praying while holding him.

"God I know I don't pray to you enough, and I Know my life isn't fully acceptable to you, but I know when you hear your child crying you have no choice but to come see what's wrong. God please heal your child that's in pain. He is not to young to deal with these things because you give your toughest battle to your strongest soldiers. He's trying to be a soldier god, but I honestly don't know how much more he can take at this point. I don't know how much More I can see him take. It's scaring me, and I don't know what to say anymore.... PLEASE HELP.."

I ended my prayer kissing Terrence's forehead. I looked down at him to see he was sleep. I picked home up and placed him in the bed and I seen him smiling in his sleep.  I went in the kitchen and open the bottle of patron and I drunk it straight. Terrence's dad walked in and placed his hand on my shoulder. "Son I appreciate you caring for my son."

I smirked at him with tears in my Eyes and replied "I don't know where to go from here at this point dad." I'm really scared and confused  right now. "Son all we can do from here is pray and try to keep a smile on his face." I gave his dad a hug while tears streamed down my face."

* Terrence's POV*

I woke up and looked at the clock it was about 9:30pm. I felt for Antwan in the bed but I didn't feel him I jumped up and he was walking out of the bathroom. "oh shit babe." You scared me he said. I chuckled and replied "I'm sorry babe.." I gave him and hug and replied "I really appreciate you twan !"
He smiles and whispered to me "anything for you."

My dad walked knocked and exclaimed "hey guys dinners ready ." I looked at the door and replied "alright dad.. we're coming." I kissed antwan and i made him get dressed we walked out. We sat at the table to it covered in seafood. "Dadddd!! This is my favorite food." He smiled and replied "Anything for my son. I just want to keep you happy from here on out."

I smiled at my dad and he smiled back at me.
I really had the world on my shoulder because losing my mother was something I least expected and I really was lost but my dad and my boyfriend really came through for me. "I don't know what I would do with out y'all I swear . Antwan I thank you so much." We smiled and grabbed each other hands. I exclaimed "this houses bond will never be broken."

We bowed our head and began praying over the food. At this point there's no where to go but up and I know that sooner or later I'm going to be able to smile again.