Spaces Between Us (✓)

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Billie and I texted, facetimed, and visited each other constantly. Weeks together turned to months. The siren in my brain went silent. Billie and I argued often, but O always put the fire out before it could burn our entire relationship. It was a matter of time before I fell in love with her. Billie was surprised when I told her, but she laughed, and told me she loves me too. Our relationship was a secret from everyone. Billie's family knew I was a good friend, and the fans stopped shipping us as a couple after a while.

Me and Billie started to get touchy pretty early on in the relationship maybe five days after we got together. Billie sort of insisted on me giving her head, and I complied, wanting to make her happy. Billie doesn't kiss me after I finish, which I understand. She just mumbles a thanks and either goes to sleep or on her phone. Billie doesn't touch me. I guess it's because she wants it to be special, or she's just not ready.

Eliana came back into our life. Billie barely looks at her.

Sometimes Billie would take me to parties. She didn't drink or smoke, but she'd always disappear for long periods of time and come back so happy she was practically glowing. I suspected she was cheating, but then I remember that Billie promised I was the only one she wanted.

We didn't go out much unless it was those parties. Nobody talked to me at them, everyone looked at me and sort of..sighed. Like they felt bad for me. If they knew what me and billie really had together, maybe they wouldn't have sighed as much.

After parties, me and Billie would cuddle as she went though her phone. I would lay my head on her chest and listen to her heartbeat as she texted people or scrolled though social media.

I no longer wanted a label.

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