She doesn't think I can be civil.
At all apparently.
She fucking saw me smiling and laughing with Jordyn.
She was right there!
And yet she's still unsure over whether or not we can get along.
I'm disappointed mostly.
This'll be the second group sleepover thingy that I won't be able to go to.
I can't help but be scared that a bad rumor about me will be spread.
Like in the group chat for Maddie's sleepover, and the only person who told me was Cayla.
And even then it wasn't real specific.
Just that someone spilled the beans about the drama.
I'm frustrated that she thinks that I would make this all about the drama Jordyn and I have had.
I feel similarly to the way I felt that day.
Distrusted.
Let down.
Disappointed.
Frustrated.
Alone.
And I'm posting this here because I don't want everyone to see this.
Because I want to use people's real names.
Not just initials or whatever.
She thinks that I can't be polite.
That hurts.
Just a little bit.
Like a lot of other things.
It's kinda getting to me tonight.
I wish I didn't do this.
Over-Analyze.
Overthink.
I just need to sleep it out I guess...
