Wrath of the Ghouls

5|Do you love me

My thoughts where clouded, it focuses now on the Albino boy ahead her. What could he possibly want with me? My thoughts where filled with these kind of thoughts, one after another they go.

Is he toying me?

Playing with me?

Why does his voice sounded so dim?, I really hate it.

My head hurts just thinking about the possibilities of kaneki's sudden change of heart and decided to talk to me. It was quite a rare occurrence, very rare I might suppose. and I couldn't help but to think deeper than things should be.

I might be over thinking, yes. But I'm also open to the possibilities of kaneki's killing me would be in 70% on my calculation, my thoughts where interrupted once again, when I accidentally bump in a tall wall - no, it was kaneki.

Kaneki suddenly stopped in his tracks, making my simpleton self to bumped in the tall man's muscled back. I took a step back as kaneki suddenly turned around to face me, I looked at our surroundings. We where standing on the edge of a steel bridge, is my thoughts really deep to not notice how I get here?, this thought went up my mind. But nonetheless I quickly shoved it away.

"Why are we here kaneki - kun?" I asked true, pure of curiosity. As I looked at him with my eyes full of curiosity. Implying that I'm really lost at his sudden actions.

He took a glance of me, before avoiding his gaze. Which is now fixed on the cold steel of the bridge, His question suddenly took me in surprise. "Do you love me truly?" He asked not even taking his gaze of the steel bridge beneath him. Even I didn't know what to say, the question left me staring at the air for a brief second. Before answering.

"I do" I answered straight, not even stuttering. My answer seem to taken kaneki a back, as he stared at me wide eyed. "I do" I repeated  my words now looking straight at the Albino boy, and what I see left me an internal joy. The great ken kaneki smiled, you don't know how much joy it brought me! A young finder like me, who likes to see different kinds of expression's from the obscure people's are the most happiest when the rarest ones smiles. No words can describe my feeling, it was beyond amazing. I felt my cheeks suddenly heat up at the events occurring, kaneki just smiled.

I feel like I sounded like a physcho. Which is I am. Well the emotions felt like a fast rollercoaster ride, that I don't want to go down from. Yet another surprise is made. "You say that you love me but, you tell that to everyone. How do I differ from them" his voice was low - no. It sounded like a whisper, but although how much low it was I still heard it.

"How do you differ?" I repeated his question flooding through my mind, yes it is true. I love everyone, but how does kaneki differ? The question itself is enough to left me in another bliss of my thoughts. On how does kaneki differ. But nonetheless I shot him another question.

"Do you want me to differ them from you?" I asked him, In a soft voice. Calm and warming, it wasn't sarcastic or something. It was my true voice which I believe to be charming.

The Albino boy felt nothing but a slight bliss as the girl asked her that. Do you want me to differ them from you?, he kept repeating it over and over again in his head, like that same old track you've never been bored of. Does he want too?, he asked him self the forbidden question. Of course he want too. His thoughts screamed it, but his alter mind fighting against it, it was some kind of pride dragging his thoughts down. But as if his mouth wasn't his, it still blab nonsense.

"Of course" I suddenly said a loud, Ritari looked at me with her stunning golden eyes that seemed to reflect even so or then. It was pretty. he always thought, soon the petite girl laugh her eyes squinting while her white pure teeth showing. Her laugh made me feel like a big burden has been lift off me. I felt like bliss.

"Fine if you so want it kaneki - kun" she said with her calm and soothing voice, I cannot distinguish if this is her real self or no. But whatever kind of voice she has, her voice still sounded like music to my ears. "You differ from anybody because I love you the most." She finish her sentence with a light giggle.

As those words escaped her mouth I felt safe, I don't know why but safe. Safe that I'm the most loved? I don't know. I don't get it while I dragged her here either. Seeing her with someone giggling and saying 'they love them' pains me, it felt like a toothpick poked my shallow heart and as soon as it made contact with the thin layers of it, the air seemed to slowly fade and starts to deflate my fragile heart. Little by little it falls until no air was left and it was neither shallow or air. But nonetheless it felt like it has been patched up when Ritari say those words. Like she patched it up and filled it with her love not leaving it shallow nor to be an air. It felt like eternity but there was a brief silence, before she spoke again.

"Now tell me, Did you ever love someone but your not afraid to lose them?" Her words, once again. Felt like a soft harmony flowing through my ears, it was ecstatic. It was a bliss. But again her words left me thinking, what is she implying?, does she tells me (everyone) that she loves me (them) but she's not afraid of losing me (us)?. These thoughts run through my head making me think deeply. But I can't, I can't figure it out.

"He?" She spoke once again. "I guess you don't know either?" She said smiling lightly to herself, staring at the steel bridge beneath her. "Well I guess the basic essential of loving someone is the fear of losing them, I don't know how you can love someone without the fear of losing them." She sigh, before releasing a wary laugh. "Well I don't know either, I never love someone so much that I fear to lose them. Not yet" she said while smiling eagerly to herself, as if another plan has popped out her unreadable mind. She stretched her arms up - bending them, before bidding her goodbyes. "Well its fun taking to you kaneki - kun, see you" she cooed, before she wave him off. Unlike her other clingy goodbyes, she kept this one straight and firm, still with her calm voice as she walked away immediately  with her deep thoughts.

Its weird, that she claims that she loves everybody but says didn't find her 'love' yet.

Its weird that I wish I was the one she feared to loose. These thoughts clouded up kaneki's  thoughts, as he watch the petite girl vanish through the darkness.