I Can't Make You Love Me [ONE SHOT]

I Can't Make You Love Me

一by Tank

Created: Sept. 11, 2014

THOMAS

I am the happiest man on earth when i marry her. I felt like heaven has given me the most precious gift that i could ever received一the girl of my dream, Ysabelle Astrid Tiongco. She's been my first crush, love & now my wife.

But they say that there is no perfect life, no constant happiness. Heaven can't give all to you. There is always something wrong or not enough. Yes, they were right, because the girl i loved doesn't love me back. She hate me, instead. She's blaming me for having the worst life that she could ever have.

We were a victim of a fix marriage. No, let me correct it, she's the only victim here because for me it was like a dream that was granted. I'm supposed to be happy but i can't, seeing her hurting and hating me breaks my heart.

How could i make her love me if she don't?

"You may now kiss the bride." The priest commanded. I am now removing the veil from her face so i could kiss her. She closed her eyes, then the tears start to fall. How i wish those tears are from happiness but they were not. I know how big is her hate for me. I know those tears are made from hate and regret.

I was about to kiss her on her soft and red lips when my conscience told me not to do it. I felt guilt. She's hurt, really hurt. So i just moved my lips towards her forehead. Then she opens her eyes that replies 'thank you' for not kissing. By that stare, i could remove even little guiltiness here in my heart and mind.

We were married for two months already. No kiss nor hug, just plain paper and title. She's my wife but i can't even show how hungry i am for the love. We were strangers when we're left alone together.

Sometimes, i just want to give up. I want to let her go, do what she wants but my heart says i should try a little more. But until when? My heart is still waiting for the morning that she can already love me back. I did everything, every little efforts i can to show how honest i am to my feelings.

"I hate you, Thomas! I really really hate all about you! Get lost!" That was one of the usual words she used to say against me.

Yeah, it hurts at first, but because she is always telling that to me, i'm getting used to it. It became usual to my ears. My heart turns to stone when she's throwing those words to me. It's like, those words are just song lyrics from the girl i love. Signs that she notice my presence whenever i'm around. That's how i love her.

I've been asking myself several times, what's wrong with me why can't she love me even just a little? I've done everything she want me to do. I exerted too effort to show how sincere i am but still, those efforts aren't enough. How long will i wait for her love? How long my heart will bear?

One night, she got drunk from her friend's party. I fetched her. "Why did you drink too much alcohol?" i asked her.

"Because i want to." she answered me, then laughed. I know she's just doing this to escape from seeing the reality of her life一being with me.

"What's wrong with you, Ysabelle? Bakit mo 'to ginagawa sa sarili mo? Tignan mo ang sarili mo, lasing na lasing ka! That is not what decent lady does!" I tried my very best to say it in nicest way but i can't. It seems like when i show the understanding side of me, the more she became rebel.

She laughed bitterly. "Why don't you ask yourself? Ikaw ang dahilan bakit ako nagkakaganto.."

"Dahil ba pinilit ang kasal natin? Yun ba, Ysa? Is that the reason?"

"Yes! That's the damn reason. Now, can i leave now?" she asked then forcely removed my hands to her arm.

"Ysabelle.."