Chris's pov:
The day's had passed and ricky never seemed to get better, he was always harping on with his own self pity. I was constantly there for him but our paths we're slowly drifting and i hadn't had the time to soothe his ache when all my attempts we're just bypassed.
I thought about what I'd do,and I'd finally realized that my band needed me now. Being a husband was my vow to ricky for better or for worse but when everything is worse what can you really do or say ?
" Ricky..um I'm going out with angelo and the other's for chicken wings, i guess it's not really worth the breath to ask but; did you want to come ?". Huffing i stood by our bedroom door staring at my phone screen as i continued to listen to sobs..he obviously wasn't coming.
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" Hey chris! Long time no see" angelo spoke to me in his low voice as the other's we're roudy and loud. " yeah..been taking care of ricky, it's pretty hard pretending i still have it in me to stay, does that make me a bad husband?" Angelo placed his hand on my shoulder shaking his head " no..just makes you a fighter, your grieving just as much as him. Guess it's your time to decide what your going to do for you..time only heals"
I nodded at angelo as everyone ate, it was quite as the guys finished their meals. Normally I'd be watching the hockey game shouting at the opposing team, but i just didn't have it in me. " we'll i guess we will see you soon then ?" Joshua asked raising his bow as i let out a small chuckle, "yeah real soon..."
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Making it home i headed straight to mine and rickys bedroom, I'd have to fight my emotions but this was clearly for the best. I wasn't mentally ready to deal with a life of rickys sorrow.
Stormimg into the room i grabbed my suit case and began suffling out clothes and necessary undergarments, ricky stared as I'm sure he was confused. It took awhile to sink in before my princess ran to me crying out " what..what are you d..doing c-chris!!? Where are you going!". Not strong enough to answer i just simply grabbed rickys face to pull him into a intimate kiss that seemed to drag on.
" leaving" i said in a husky voice as i tried catching my breath, god he was perfect. How was i going to move on ? He was everything and more, but i wasn't going to be happy until i did. "N..no c..Christopher..please.." tears ran down his cheeks causing a shiver down my spine as i bit my triple pierced lip. " yeah...i have to..for me."
" But what about me, When your gone how will i move on ?" ricky whimpered pulling on my leather jacket as he laid his head on my shoulder. " please..stay one more night...i won't ask for anything else".
Ricky stared at the ring on his finger, violent cries fleding his soft lips. I felt terrible but i knew ricky and i we're both to broke to fix what we'd lost. " okay one more night...."
