When all you want to do it
kill yourself
with that pretty black barrel
all you would have to do is pull that small curved surface called the trigger,
or you could use the smooth silver surface tainted with
the red of your past,
just slice slowly yet deep into your arms, wrist, stomach....throat even. But you have to be strong
for him....for him and for everyone you have to put on
that amazing smile he and others say you have.
You have to go without telling some one how you truly feel knowing you don't want to make them sad or upset so you go without sleep or food
