The truth || jjk

Jungkook's pov

She's dying.

She's dying Jungkook

Don't you get it?

All this sentence made me stiff. I didn't know what to do nor what to say I just stood there dumbfounded. Why did it feel like a lie for me? I know I want to distant myself from her, but how can I when I'm in love with her? She's a massive murder, I'm an innocent boy who wants to find love. Now that I found out that my best friend is dying I don't know what I'm suppose to do. I don't know if I can live with myself if she is going to leave me in this fucked up world. I need her and I know it. It's good to be selfish around her, it's good to show my real side to her.

I'm so stupid for falling so easily in love. How am I going to live without her? My only favorite person in the world. Sure I love my hyungs but Celine is in another different level.

I were so lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice Martin's presence. Agh I need to deal with him, but I still wants more answers from him. I just needs to find out if my belly bean is alright. I can't imagine her dying, thats too much for me.

"Martin" Damn it stop stuttering.

He hummed in response.

"How many days do she have left?" I asked clearing my voice to stop myself from cracking.

He sighed. Why did he sigh? What is behind his sigh? Sadness? Happiness? If he is happy that she's dying then I'm gonna breath his ass up.

"I don't know.. maybe a month or less?"

"I don't know.."

Damn you Martin, your not helping much.

I still want her to be my date in Taehyung's anniversary party. I know I'm being selfish again but nothing can stop me when I'm with her. My belly bean.

"I want to see her" I said sharp earning a glare from her friend.

He doesn't look pleased by my sentence but I don't care I want to see her now and nothing can stop me.

"Jungkook.." He said slow making me more impatient than I am.

Don't lose yourself Jungkook...

I know my swing modes, only Celine can make me lose myself.

"Martin.." I said slow while gritting my teeth.

He noticed my eager and left a sigh making me groan quietly so he couldn't hear.

"She's in one of the guest rooms"

I quickly left and searched for her. It took me just 2 minutes before I walked to the last guest door. I opened the door and tilted my head in to see if she were there. Luckily she were.

But my heart shatter in pieces when I saw her crying silently in the bed. I wanted to run to her and hug her and say sweet things into her ear to comfort her, but I held myself from doing that afraid of doing something wrong.

Oh shit who am I kidding?

I quickly ran to her and smashed my arms around her small frame. I could feel her stiff by my sudden action.

"You know I'm here for you even if I just found about you being a murder" I said into her ear breathy.

I felt her relax but I could also feel her hold her tears back and hiding them making me sad.

"Oh belly bean. Just let it go. Don't let it in or you will have the weight on your shoulder for longer than you know" I said calmly into her ear.

We sat in the bed hugging each other. I stroked her hair while she sobbed and cried on my shoulder, I could feel the cold wetness on my shoulder but I didn't care. Her cries were like melody in my ears because of how she hid it. I were so proud of her for opening up for me.

By now she sniffed and were ready to face me. I couldn't help smiling when she looked at me with the most beautiful face I ever seen.

Oh my god how can she make me go so wild? I lover her so much.

I love you

I love you

I love you

"I love you"

Shit did I say it out loud. Her eyes suddenly widened making my eyes widen

I fucking said it out loud!

"I meant I love how you opened up for me belly bean"

I said looking at her futures, oh even if she had cried and swollen eyes she still looked perfect.

She just nodded still not convinced with my answer but I just let it slid because I couldn't stop staring at her eyes.

Those eyes made me melt. I touched her nose making her giggle, great I made her lighten up, one of the things I love to do to her. I smiled at her while she smiled back with a small smile.

I knew that both of us were both tired so I spent my day with her cuddling and sleeping in Martin's guest room.

I didn't care what Martin did the whole evening but this was the best thing I did with Celine when I and her were together.

We didn't talk much but the actions we made talked for us.

We knew that we loved each other but wouldn't tell. That made me a bit sad but I couldn't take the risk.

"Jungkook?" She suddenly said making me nervous

I hummed in response.

"I'm dying.."

Not that again, I can't help but get irritated.

"No you're not" I argued back while sitting on the bed.

She sat on the bed with me and stared at my eyes, I wanted to badly to read her mind right now.

"Yes, I'm dyi-"

I couldn't stand it anymore and hit her.

With my lips on her lips making her widen her eyes.

Gosh I have really lost my mind.