Bands Apart [On Hold]

15. Potential Happy Endings & Unfortunate Occurrences

Zayn's P.O.V.

I had been recluent to drive away, my heart hurt at the thought of it alone. If I could I would stay with Perrie the rest of the night, but I knew I couldn't. That was why I forced myself to drive away with out her. 

After I had with-drew from my love a simple but complicated debate surfaced. I wasn't sure if I should go back to the hotel, and try to get some sleep or just keeping driving around until my eyes grew heavy. For a little bit I weighed the options, then decided to go with the second option. 

So now I was driving around the city in circles as I listened to music on my radio. Most of the material they were playing were mainstream songs, but my mood was so good right now that I didn't bother changing the channel. 

From the moment I had told Perrie I loved her in the middle of a smelly ocean with glow fish as an audience, I felt a sense of humanity and freedom. I felt relaxed, like I could rule the world, like a cloud drifting happily along as I defied gravity.

 I think what made it even better though was the she said it back. 

That was what really made my heart swell with joy, the unbelievable proclamation of her love. 

Earlier today I had felt like I was going to have a mental break down, that my job ruined it again, and I was so scared I had gotten my heart broken again. The same way it had been snapped viciously in half by Rebbecca. But if Perrie broke my heart it would shatter into a million irreparable pieces that would rest inside my stomach eternity. 

Shaking my head to push away the thought, I rolled down my window to let some fresh cold air in as I turned up my radio a couple of notches. I had been driving around for an hour now, which made it past two in the morning. 

Meaning I should start heading back to the hotel. I still wasn't tired though so I'll probably have to take a couple of sleeping pills to bring it on. I know whats going to happen though, the pills won't work then the lost sleep will catch up to me, and I'll pass out from exhaustion. 

She was worth it though.

 About ten minutes after deciding to go back I pulled into the quiet parking lot, and turned off my car. I really hope I wouldn't have to much difficultly getting back into the room with out waking up Niall. 

He would kill me if he found out I did exactly what he told me not to.

"I can't believe this happened again. It's like history is repeating itself." I sobbed onto Nialls shoulder, and he shushed me as he wrapped his arms around me tightly. 

"I'm so sorry Zayn, I can't believe she turned out to be another Rebbecca." He said bitterly, and I felt my chest constrict as I buried my face deeper into his shoulder. I wanted badly to shout at him for comparing her to Rebbecca, but how was I suppose to argue with him when we both knew he was right.

 I was stupid for believing love could happen so quick, and I was a fool for believing Perrie would actually risk getting in trouble to hang out with a over publicised boy band member she just met.