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by Pix1305

by Pix1305

this is going to be a short chapter seeing as it's almost 2 am. I just needed to get this off me chest right now. i'm on the verge of tears and I need to say something.

my best friend, I've known her for years. we basically grew up together. Nothing could tear us apart. when we are together we are inseparable, but I feel like I can't have an opinion when I am with her.

I don't like talking about my feelings with her because of this. I feel as though I have no one to rant to (that's why i'm writing this rant book). If she knows im sad she tries to cheer me up but it she still doesn't know the whole story.

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My ex.

part of the reason I am on the verge of tears as I type this.

He asked me out in September. I said yes, and we dated until the first of November.

now he likes my best friend and its been a month and a half since we broke up, and im not sure if my best friend still likes him or not. im still not quite over him. We fought a few times but it was never too serious; we had are ups and downs just like any couple (even though it didn't last long)

he was good looking, funny, and we grew up listening to the same music, the only big difference is that i'm an introvert and he is an extrovert.

anyways, skip to 30 minutes ago.

I posted a thing on my story and it had these categories like

anxiety, sports, art, music, beauty, and awkwardness. and you rate yourself, so on anxiety I put like 45%

anxiety:45%

sports: 75%

art: 100%

music: 100%

beauty: 35% cause im not that confident

awkwardness: 100%

and snaps me, which I was not happy to see his name in the first place, but I open it anyway and he sent me back what he thought I was

his thoughts

anxiety:???

sports: 45%

art: 5% art is something I take seriously and so I was on the verge of tears just reading that one.

music: 50%

beauty: 25% this hurt cause when we where dating he always called me beautiful, even when I was in baggy clothes and no makeup.

awkwardness: 100% this didn't bother me cause I know I am awkward. I have no people skills what so ever.

he asked if I was mad I said no and then said not to assume thing.

so now I am face timing my online friend at 2:30 in the morning watching her dance, it's cheering me up bunches already.

Stray Kids help me so much, their lyrics, them as people that is why they are my ult group and I am honestly so proud of them cause it hasn't even been a year since their debut.

494 words- wOw I thought this would've been short-