⤴︎ roller coaster ⤵︎

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                      roller coaster = love

why is it similar to love? it makes you go crazy, it makes you dizzy, it goes up and down. you never know when it'll end.

It all started when I left the guy I was supposed to marry at the altar. I ran away, how? I basically locked myself in a bathroom and I saw a window, you can get the rest. Why? You may ask? I was pressured, I didn't want to wake up to the same face over and over again. I didn't want to end up like my first relationship in my senior year.

{FLASHBACK to SENIOR YEAR} he stayed with me for so long! Whenever I'm awake, he's there! He always texts me! I got annoyed of course. I ended that so-called "wonderful" relationship. How? Got a band to sing him a breakup song. Nailed it!

{BACK to NORMAL} people kept staring at me, I mean, I totally get it. I would stare at a woman who's running away in a WEDDING DRESS too. But the embarrassment! I can't believe I went through that! I kept tripping over rocks cause of how long the dress was. And I broke my 20K dollar Gucci shoes that I DESIGNED. What a waste, honestly. Do I miss that guy? From time to time, yeah. Oh, I'm so rude, his name is Michael, my bad for not telling the name. He was incredible, best kisser, best hugger, best in everything! But there was only one thing that I wanted in a guy that he didn't have, he was so perfect, it's like he treated me like a princess everyday. I didn't want that, I wanted a guy that can be both Michael and a mixture of a bad boy, not like robber kind of bad boy, but like he argues, we have arguments. So that got me thinking when I was in the bathroom, waiting for my dad to say "let's go, you're getting married!". All I heard in my head was "leave him! Get your type!" But then I would hear another thing and it would say "marry Michael! He loves you with all his heart! You can't just throw it all away".  Unfortunately I followed the 1st one and crawled out of that small window, it was so small that I had to rip some of the product of my wedding dress. I felt so free! But then I had no place to live. A light bulb popped into my head! I suddenly remembered that my friends are here! Christine, and, Chloe! I know they would be at this specific bar down the street, so I went there all by myself, man! Perverts are getting weirder and weirder these days! But I saw them and everyone was staring at us due to the fact that I was shouting, and they were shouting too. They offered me to stay in their apartment because it's luxury! Duh! You'd expect it to be 5-star because it's in Beverly Hills.

I woke up the next morning and the first thing I decided to do, was to get dressed and find my twin-flame! Fortunately I did find someone, and he was everything I ever wanted! Arguments? Check! Brunette? Check! Glasses? Check! Tall? Check!!! Damn I was so happy! His name was Andrew, he was quite the hard-to-get kinda guy. I'm not the kind of girl to wait, so I went up to him, asked him out. I ended up having a date the next night.

And finally, we were official! When he met my friends, they were happy! My family is too much for him, probably it's due to the fact that I didn't apologize for running away last minute and left the guy who loves me for another one. I still feel guilty up to this day, if I had the chance and the audacity to apologize, I would. It's too late. My parents said he has a drinking problem and is a bit depressed after what I did. I'm gonna visit soon so I can apologize properly and sincerely because I've never felt so much guilt in my whole body. I wish to see him, and my family again. Anyways, Christine told me the weirdest thing before we went to sleep, she asked me "are you sure with Andrew?" Obviously I asked why, she said "eh, I just don't really trust him" I never believed her because I was blinded by the love.
I honestly wish I could go back in time, just so I can follow what she said because it would've been very helpful to me...