⤴︎ roller coaster ⤵︎

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Andrew. My love, My everything. I wish he wasn't that controlling. I will tell you one thing, don't be uncomfortable after this but, he was the first guy who made me feel satisfied.

I remember this one, beautiful moment. We were in his house because his parents went away, due to financial problems. He was just composing another song because he loves to sing. I was just on my phone on his bed. He sang a little recap of the song, and I locked my phone and listened to him. His voice was so soothing to hear, it was literally aloe Vera for your ears. When he sang the last part, I felt hella weird. Because, the last 2 sentences of the song is "Maybe your right here in front of me." & "I'm finally gonna be your kink".
And he was literally singing iN fR0nT oF mE. So I wanted to run away because I was scared as fck.

"Heard my song?" He said. "Yea, um- well, it was-" I was gonna reply with an "it was beautiful"
But he cut me off and said "what did you think of the last part?" I froze. I just replied with an "it got me surprised!" Then I added an "what was this song about?" "You" he replied. And then I was shaking, sweating, and looking down. After a while of akward silence, I finally got the courage to look up again. He wAs sMiRkiNg. Like- i dont even know anymore. "Tell me something babygirl, if I didn't make that song, but still told you I'm now your kink, would you still let me do this?" And then he smashed his lips on mine.

The tension was hot, it took me 2 seconds to respond, i was so shocked. I honestly couldn't believe he would do that. It didn't feel like him.
"Babygirl, I know I'm only saying this once, and before I even start what im about to say, I'm just gonna clarify that I'm not drunk nor high. Where do I even start?, I love you? No, you probably already know that. I can't resist myself from staring at your body." He said. "Wh-what?!" I said, but then he cuts me off and said "you're beautiful, inside and out. And seeing you go to school in our uniform, makes me go crazy". "But the uniform is a disgusting yellow blouse with a long ass skirt." I replied. "You just wear a bra under that blouse, let me repeat for you, the blouse is translucent! And you can see that black lace bra under that." He replied. "But-" "AhbAbAb! Let me finish" he cuts me off again, "anyways I just wanted to say that if you can't stop me from loving you, then that probably means you're not gonna stop me from doing this either." Then he kisses me roughly, and plants hickeys on my neck. I enjoyed it for the most part. But it didn't feel right, it felt like it was going too fast, he knows that I felt uncomfortable. So he stopped. And he said, "I get it, maybe next time" and then I said "nobody stopped you from planting more hickeys, you can do that, FOR SURE!" He laughed at my response. "But I'm not losing my virginity yet, that's scary as hell" I added. "Andrew look, I have told you that I slept with someone and that's my ex husband, but i didn't lose it, he lowkey kissed me for so long and then slept with me, literally just slept." I said. Andrew said "I get it. Its okay baby, as long as I can plant hickeys, I'm alright." "You have a deal mister" I replied.