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i walked into the NCT 127 apartment, ready to see taeyong and as i walked in, i was bombarded by all eighteen member.

"did they drop you?"

"tell me who your manager is so i can kill him!"

"yosee are you okay?"

"have you told yoongi?"

"join nct!"

i couldnt even get through the door as they were all surrounding me.

"GUYS! SHUT UP!" i hear a loud voice say.

they all turn around to the voice and he tells them to move out of the way. they all move and i am greeted with an angry looking taeyong.

"tyong are you okay?" i ask and place my hand on his shoulder gently.

"me? what about you?! they terminated your contract!" he almost yells.

i look at him and tears filled my eyes.

i got the phonecall from my manager telling me they were dropping me and i felt like my world had fallen apart.

of course i had rapping to fall back to but if my agency had dropped me, surely cube would too.

rather than saying anything i just put my head in my hands and cried. at this point i was still in the hallway. i felt taeyong put his had around my waist and pull me into the apartment.

he told yukhei to shut the door and his voice seemed much softer than before.

i heard a few footsteps following me and taeyong as he led me through the dorm.

he led me into a room and a few of the other boys came in too.

i looked around through my tear-blurred eyes and saw i was in Tyong's and Johnny's room.

he sat me in his desk chair next to his bed and kneeled down in front of me.

"take as long as you need to talk okay? just express how you feel" he says.

i look up to see Lucas, Ten and Jungwoo looking at me with sad faces.

i had never seen yukhei, my best friend, look so down. i had never seen ten look so angry and sad at the same time. i had never seen jungwoo with such an upset look on his face.

"m-my manager called me last night," i manage to finally say. "he told me that he was terminating my contract even though i hadnt broken any rules and just told me that i was disrespectful to the company's name. b-but im worried about my career. if my agency dropped me, won't cube? i'm so scared. i've worked so hard to achieve this. my mom even hated me for a while i-" i stopped at that sentence and just put my head in my hands again.

i wont cry. dont cry.

jungwoo handed me a box of tissues and i wiped my eyes and my nose.

"wait, so your manager said you were disrespectful?! he's the only one disrespecting anyone!" ten says angrily. his eyebrows were furrowed and he was pacing. "yukhei, grab you fists. we're gonna-"

"ten you're not doing anything" taeyong says.

"but-" taeyong interrupted ten by raising his hand, signalling him to shush.

"love, you need to calm down slightly. i know that soo man hyung has been dying to get you into this company and supports our relationship. if you want, we can get a meeting with him and see if you can fall back on SM if Cube do drop you" he says and places a hand gently on my knee.

"really? but what if he doesnt want me in his company?" i ask.

"have faith in yourself, yosee," jungwoo says.

"you and your brother have both gone through a lot to get to where you are now. if SM doesnt snatch you up quickly, Bighit will snatch you up or JYP or YG." yukhei says.

"wow, xuxi, i didn't know you were a die hard fan of my brother too?" i joke and laugh lightly.

"ah theres that beautiful smile!" taeyong says and smiles brightly at me.

"thank you for everything you guys" i say as taeyong grabs my hand and we both stand up.

i let go of taeyongs hand and opened my arms to all the boys.

"grouphug?" i ask and they all basically run to me.

after the grouping we all walk out back to where the other seventeen members were (i hadnt spoken to Hendery, Yangyang or Xiaojun yet though) and as i walked in, they all faced me and shouted something.

"yosee hwaiting!" they shouted in unision.

"saranghae!" i hear from the back.

i laugh before yelling back, knowing exactly who it was.

"nado saranghae donghyuk!" i laugh again.

as they all came up to me and hugged me again, i realised how lucky i was to be surrounded by all of these idiots.

they all let me go and i pulled yukhei aside and asked him something as all the others were talking and causing havoc.

"yukhei, i need you to do me a favour and keep a secret" i say quietly as we stood in the corridor.

"what is it? are you okay?"

i took a deep breath before telling him something i hadnt told anyone yet.

"sm have offered me a modelling contract and a rapping contract and i think im going to accept it." i say and i hear a gasp from down the corridor.

me and yukhei both look towards our rught where we see renjun just coming out of a room, presumably the toilet.

"i-i didnt mean to eavesdrop but you have to accept!" he whisper shouts, making sure no one else hears.

"i have to agree with him there, yosee"

"they're offering me my own apartment away from my old one too. i'd even get my own small recording room in it too and a designated dance studio like the one you guys have. i- i wanted it to be a surprise for all of you though, especially taeyong." i say.

"my lips are sealed, i wont say a thing" renjun says.

"oh he's good at keeping secrets. he hasn't told anyone that i broke haechan's phone that time-" he says and quickly covered his mouth.

"oh my god please dont tell him!" yukhei pleads as me and renjun are left laughing.

"i promise if you promise not to tell anyone mine" i say and he agrees.

i guess i'd be signing to SM soon then.