By Chance

Background info

Hi, my name is Allie. I'm a senior in high school this year and if I'm being honest, I hate high school. Ever since Jr High, I've always had the hardest time making friends, I guess being the youngest in your class makes it difficult to mature at the same rate as everyone else. I had close friends then, Tyra and Maddie. I'm still friends with Tyra today but Maddie? We pretty much hate each other now. And the year I lost her I was so hurt. I had almost lost both of them because of Maddie. She had a vision of climbing some social ladder and I was too naive to see that I was apart of it. After that, I stopped talking to other people all together because I didn't feel like I could trust anyone. I slowly became super antisocial and it crippled my social life. Even though I was awful at talking to people, it didn't stop me from developing crushes. Jr High was full of disappointment for me. No one returned my affections then. But on the last day of school, I was told someone had a crush on me. I didn't believe it at the time and I just blew it off, vowing to not mess with boys anymore. Later that summer, two of my friends approached me to talk. Their names were Ethan and Rhett. Let's just say Rhett can't keep a secret and I found out it was Ethan who liked me. I got so excited, because no one had ever liked me before. We agreed to start talking. If I'm being honest, that was one of my biggest mistakes. We talked for 9 months and he never asked me out. He was always blowing me off when I asked if he wanted to so something or if I wanted to hang out. I eventually called it quits and told him I didn't want to talk anymore. I went the remainder of my freshman year without thinking about it and just trying to get by. Summer eventually passed and that's when sophomore year rolled in. I vowed to myself that I was going to stop being this awkward person who was always just skating by trying not to be noticed. And that's where my story with him begins. That first day in history when I decided that my first new friend would be him.