By Chance

Chapter 2

I waited for him next to the library. I couldn't stop smiling at this point. I saw him round the corner and what I saw next broke me. There he was, holding hands with another girl. My heart felt like it had been shattered, my chest physically hurt when I saw him with her. Her name is Brooklyn, shes a Senior. Even if I had the nerve to fight her for him, she was a senior and being the lower classman I was not about to fight her for him. I didn't want to stick around to see more so I carried myself into the library and just waited. Gabe eventually walked in and I gave him a smile. He smiled back and sat down next to me. Even though I had a crush on him, I wasn't willing to lose him as a friend over it. From then on, any feelings about Gabe outside being friends was shoved down into the back of my mind. I admit it still hurt, knowing I no longer had a chance. I walked into Drill Team class that day and Kayla looked at me concerned. "Allie, what's wrong?" I gave a sigh and explained everything to her. Kayla isn't much for showing emotional expression, but I could tell she felt bad for me. I don't want people to feel bad for me. I don't even understand why it hurt so much to see Gabe with Brooklyn, we'd only even friends for a couple months. A few weeks passed and it got easier and easier to hide, although it was always difficult seeing them together. I began to see them together more frequently in the hallways. She always seemed to look at me every time, its like she knew. At this point Gabe and I had become pretty good friends and I was happy with that. He was always there for me when I needed him. Especially the nights I have breakdowns. Those nights I used to sit in my room and just cry to myself. Sometimes there was no rhyme or reason for it, it just happened. He was always messaging me, making sure I was okay. That meant a lot to me. He was the first person to ever notice that this was happening in my life. I used him as a crutch and I think it had begun to really upset Brooklyn. One day in November, I opened my Snapchat to message Gabe and I all of a sudden couldn't find him anywhere on my friends list. Me being the oblivious idiot I am, texted him and telling him I thought it was some bug. So I began to just text him, he was still there for me but something just seemed so off about the entire situation. I decided to just push it aside and leave it alone.
December finally rolled around and thats when I had finally confessed to a senior on the drill team about my crush on Gabe, her name was Rylinn. Now I hadn't known this at the time, but she was actually dating Gabe's older brother Daniel. When I found out, I was terrified of the repercussions I was fixing to get from it. Luckily, they never came. I went into Christmas break, drowning in so many thoughts and emotions. Seeing nothing but pictures of them all over their Instagram pages. I didn't know what to do about it because there wasn't anything I could do about it except deal with it until it either ended or until we graduate.

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