Aphrodite

my lover

Mia amata,

I hope you don't hate me, since I don't hate you. In fact, I love you. More than anything else in the whole universe and beyond. Last night, when I was talking to my fellow inmates, they asked me who I loved most and I whispered your name. I don't want them to know it because I'm afraid that they will steal you from me since I don't know whether I will get out of here alive.

I wanted to ask you a question after the process, but you were already gone. Was what your father told Prince Apostelis true? If so, forgive me mia amata. I never wanted to hurt you or bring you to shame. But when I look back, I do see the consequences of my unthoughtful actions. I hope you still have a future, even without me.

However, I doubt that you will get this letter from me. Atlas, my new friend, told me that we write letters but they will be burned by the Prince. God will know that I wrote this letter and He will send an angel to you to tell this message. Then the angel will take you to Heaven because that angel is confused by your beauty; I'm drifting off. I would love to take you to Heaven with me. We could be immortal and live at each other sides in Heaven. Now I speak of Heaven as a place I'll go, but if what your father told Prince Apostelis was true, then Lord don't save my soul from eternal Hell because that is what I deserve.

In my room, where I sleep with Atlas and Helios, we have mice. I named one Aphrodite, after you. She is very shy so she isn't much like you, but it's comforting calling your name even when you're not here. I considered calling her mia amata and keeping your name a complete secret but I trust Atlas and Helios. Maybe they'll deliver this letter one day, but I don't think they will make it either.

If I may be honest, I didn't believe your father when he started his monologue but when I saw you sitting behind the glass, I couldn't help it but doubt everything. You cried and I wanted to comfort you more than anything. I saw your pain and I didn't know you felt pain for me or for yourself; or more specifically whether you felt this pain because I hurt you. When I close my eyes, I see your eternal beauty and the white dress you wore on the night we met.

Mia amata, I love you and I am afraid. Hypnos told me that I don't have long and I hoped you would visit me, but I understand the situation with you and your father. Please, forgive me if I have ever done you wrong and I hope I will burn in flames for any pain I have done you. But if I haven't, then please join me in Heaven so I will see your beauty again. Mia amata, you were all I had but all I wished for.

Loves forever,

Ares