People never asked themselves "why do you lock yourself in your room?" while they're telling me "get out of those limits! You've got so many obstacles you must fight against them! Oh you're not so open-minded like you told us about" I think honestly even the wiser man on this world has got some fears, let's think about death, aren't you afraid of it ?
Okay everybody knows we're gonna face it someday, but it's different: (let's see how I watch life in different points)
We got fear for all those stuffs we don't know anything about, so...
The first situation is:
a) We feel that sensation come through our veins,
b) That sensation becomes fear.
Or the second one is:
a) We already know it will happen in the future, so this is life!
b) our body is ready to get it, but in our unconscious part we feel incapable
This is what happens in our mind and body.
So...I'm afraid of negativity even if I'm living in it, my mind is constantly thinking about those bad things that life actually holds in.
I know I must change my thoughts and I'm really working on them, I hope everyone can find herself/himself between these words.
I had some brutal experiences, in particular with my friends, one of them bullied me (he was my best friend),
that wasn't only a verbal aggression, it took to the next step. Now I'm over it, but sometimes I think how it changes my way to relate to the outside world, in particular with boys, I was just a teenager and this happened.
I just wanted to scream out all my pain I held inside of me, sometimes I wanted to disappear, I was ashamed of him and even of myself because I permitted him to treat me disrespectfully.
I spent an entire summer in tears, before all of this happend I did his english homework for school, then I knew he took 9/10. I was so angry with myself, I was frustrated, I wanted to move on, maybe in another city with my family, but I couldn't do anything.
Now, I consider my opinion more than I used to with myself, so for now I choose respect for myself and this is changing my life.
You can choose your path, you can choose to realise your dream, you can do what you wanna to do for yourself and nobody is gonna stop you.
Go right there and show your powerful positive energy.
You can do that, trust yourself, I'm with you!
When I'm in a bad mood I always say to myself: "C'mon you can do that!"
It helps me out, it's like being halfway there.
Respect yourself, even if it means to stay alone or even if it means edit yourself.
Enjoy this journey.
It's your life, don't let anyone decide your path.
Sometimes I feel like my worth isn't so relevant to others, when I take the decision to close definitely a door they come back to me, saying things they never told me before, why should people just wait to say beautiful words to someone they love? Why should it take so long?
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A lonely girl
RomanceDid you ever feel alone when you are with your friends? Did you ever feel lost in your city? Did you ever think to escape abroad ? Well, there's only an answer to all of these questions "Yes, I absolutely did"
