Death of the Heart

Happiest Day's

Date 5/7/19 Time: 4:15
Dear Diary-"Mom I'm going out" I say as happy as possible

"Where"? She says

" Out with some friends to the carnival" I lie as I'm going to the place that makes me happiest the animal shelter

"Ok dear well have a good time".

Now to give you some background I know I have depression but my mom doesn't. As for my dad well we moved out after he had abused my mom when I was 8 and my brother was killed by his ex girlfriend. The happiest I've ever been was at a pic-nic everything was perfect I had an amazing family but then it crashed. As I reach the animal shelter I look through the window and wish I could just have one animal but my mom is allergic to dogs cats and anything with fur.

"Hi Sharon" I say walking in

"Ugh you again well your an idiot if you think your going back there again" she says nagging me

but I immediately go back there to look at the animals Sharon obviously runs after me and yells:

"KID GET OUT OF THE BACK OR I CALL SECURITY"!!!! She had said

And I stupidly say: "YOUR NOT THE BOSS OF ME

Let's just say I was banned form the animal shelter after that I walk to my... no I won't lie to my diary I guess I was going to the carnival actually. I was planning on sitting around eating cotton candy but I ran into my bully and I got beaten up in the bathroom I ended up just crying at the park. When I got home there was a note on the door saying: Dear daughter I had to leave for work today my boss called me in for a fill in for my manager so I left some food in the fridge I'll be home by 12:30 love you from mom. Well I guess I'm home alone tonight. I go inside check Twitter and see this post about me on @Gossip_Girl and it said: omg this girl at school is so weird and bad at everything she's so weird I'll keep it anonymous but she's just weird she has brown eyes and red hair so she's ugly to.

Ugh!! So I have depression and I'm going to get made fun of more at school . I go to make dinner and I have a single mushroom Ugh!!! I skip dinner brush my teeth and go to bed BUT THEN I HEAR MUSIC FROM NEXT DOOR AND IT'S THIS: White hit or miss I guess they never miss hu you got a boyfriend bet he doesn't kiss you mwah he gonna find another girl and ain't gonna miss you he gonna skirt and hit the dab like Wiz Kelifa . So i go over there in my pj's and ask them to turn it down and they say:

"Umm no your just a kid and don't tell me what to do".

Wow there rude meanies.

That's it for this entry I will talk again tomorrow -signed Mia