Encumbrance- A burden and a weight on your chest pulling you down from your success.
You know that feeling when you want to write songs or a book and your mind goes completely blank.
That happens to me all the time.
Except when it all hits to close to home and you go through something to burst ideas into your head.
Hurtful, painful times reward you with passionate, emotional lyrics.
I go through my book of music scribbles and notes as I hear a slam of a door from the floor below.
I quickly throw my book across the room in hopes it will cover and hide from the mess that's about to come.
I hear lazy thuds creep up the stairs.
I neaten my clothes by patting them down and my door swings open.
I take a big gulp as I slowly close my eyes and clear my mind.
"Hi father" I say blankly "w-what were y-you doing-g?" He asks suspicion rising.
"N-nothing father just studying" I stuttered. Damn why am I stuttering?He holds himself up by placing his arm on the wall beside him. This protecting his drunken posture.
"I don't believe you, y-you little shit"
"D-did you do that test today and did you get the highest score y-you know you need to stay on t-top to take over the family c-company" he asked with wide eyes.
Shit, I forgot, he's going to kill me.
A little backstory. My father wants me to take over the family business, and to do that I have to do a lot of extra work and skills.
The thing is I don't want to spend my life like that I want to study music but my father would never EVER approve.
"n-no I'm s-so sorry the guy in f-front of me was j-just so smart I coul-"
"So your telling me you didn't get top?" He asked harshly not even stuttering anymore.
"I'm sor-" a sharp pain formed on my cheek, stinging feeling the presence of something still hovering over my cheek.
"You will get top next time your hear me?!" I'm completely frozen zoomed out did my father really just hit me, it must just be a misunderstanding.
A hit to the same cheek formed "I said did you hear me brat!" A sheet of gloss filled my eyes.
"Yes! Yes! I'm sorry!" I squeaked. I went to wipe my tears away with my sleeves closing my eyes.
I'm awoken from the two seconds of thoughts when I heard another screech from my father.
I look up to find him holding- wait. Oh no.... Fuck he's got my notebook.
"Yoongi, what the fuck is this, is it that gay music we told you to give up ages ago?!"
My stomach plummeted 5 feet underground after he said those words.
"Dad! I'm sorry, I just do it when I'm bored I swear!"
He looked at me with a smirk plastered on his face. " if that's so" he took the sheets in his hands and began ripping them up.
"No! Please no! Dad they're special!" I began screaming with terror in my voice as he begins ripping up my only way of peace and emotion.
"That'll teach you, I don't want to see you writing that stuff again, you hear me?!" He yelled at the top of his lungs.
"Yes dad" I said emotionless. He slammed the door shut and left me there on my bed sobbing. I felt nothing music was the only way I expressed my feelings.
I guess it wouldn't hurt to write one more to myself. But not being stupid I'd write this one up in my notes on my phone.
As I typed I felt emotions spilling everywhere putting my full effort into it as it could be the last time I ever write again.
Yoongis last song
Save me
I want to breathe, I hate this night
I want to wake up, I hate this dream
I'm trapped inside of myself and I'm dead
Don't wanna be lonely
Just wanna be yours
Why is it so dark where you're not here
It's dangerous how wrecked I am
Save me because I can't get a grip on myself
Listen to my heartbeat
It calls you whenever it wants to
Because within this pitch black darkness
You are shining so brightly
Give me your hand
Save me save me
I need your love before
I fall, fall
Give me your hand save me save me
I need your love before I fall, fall
Give me your hand save me save me
Give me your hand save me save me
Save me, save me
Today the moon shines brighter on the blank spot in my memories
It swallowed me, this lunatic, please save me tonight
(Please save me tonight, please save me tonight)
Within this childish madness you will save me tonight
I knew that your salvation
Is a part of my life and the only helping hand that will embrace my pain
The best of me, you're the only thing I have
Please raise your voice so that I can laugh again
Play on
Listen to my heartbeat, it calls you whenever it wants to
Because within this pitch black darkness, you are shining so brightly
Give me your hand save me save me
I need your love before I fall, fall
Give me your hand save me save me
I need your love before I fall, fall
Give me your hand save me save me
Give me your hand save me save me
Thank you for letting me be me
For helping me fly
For giving me wings
For straightening me out
For waking me from being suffocated
For waking me from a dream which was all I was living in
When I think of you the sun comes out
So I gave my sadness to the dog
(Thank you. For being 'us')
Give me your hand save me save me
I need your love before I fall, fall
Give me your hand save me save me
I need your love before I fall, fall
A/N: Lmao yes I just did that I give full credit to bts- save me don't copyright strike me jeezz anyway this kinda was a hard chapter to write and I had no experience through abuse so I'm not sure how this is gonna go.
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