"should we really be doing this?"
"of course" his breath is hot on my lips, his gaze piercing through me.
"and it'll work?" he nods his head lazily before his eyes set on my lips. he looks into my eyes one last time before our lips lock within each...
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the only thoughts swirling around in my mind all revolved around the same thing, leo. smothered in my blankets, eyes wide open staring into the darkness above me, the same moments flashing again and again like they were seared into my head. his hands on me and the taste of his lips before he pulled away, the look he had given me, nothing like the ones he had ever given my before. For those very few seconds, he looked so confused and so vulnerable and as quickly that it had appeared it swiftly vanished into nothing. a cold and hard expression as if he had never felt anything at all. what even was that? what did it mean? my small hands slip out of the confinements of my blankets to rub my face. hoping to clear away some of the confusion and to make sense of my jumbled thoughts. as my actions seem to be completely ineffective, i reach over for my phone, checking the time,
3:05 am.
i am unable to get a single wink of sleep, no matter how hard i seem to try. if i keep this up i'm going to end up with major eye bags and that's just gross. i go to pull the blankets off of me when i notice the trembling. its gentle but noticeable, i bring my hand closer to my face, spreading my fingers out and flipping it over, as if it'll stop the shaking. i bring my arm down and force my eyes shut as tightly as possible. i roll my body onto my side, smothering my face deeper into my silk pillow, praying for sleep to take me over. finally i forcibly am able to fall into the darkness, no dreams appear, no sounds, simply silent darkness embracing me whole, numbness spreading through every part of my body.
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sunshine spills into the room suddenly, the intense brightness waking me up and the screeching of metal against metal rings in my ears. someone opened my blinds, earning a groan to escape from me. i move onto my back to take a proper look at the turbulence in my presence. "don't you look horrid this morning" aqua pleasantly exclaims, a wide smile plastered across her face as she stands in front of my bed, arms crossed against her chest. i content myself with flipping her off a small huff escaping through my parted lips.
her simple response is to roll her eyes at me as i start pushing the dark strands of hair out of my face and slowly and delicately pushing myself into a seating position, reaching for my phone. aquarius decides to sit herself on the foot of my bed going on her phone, the room engulfed in silence.
i lose track of time, sitting across from aqua, the only sound coming from our nails coming into contact with the screens of our devices. the sudden sound of a door being slammed closed echos throughout the room, startling both me and aquarius as we look up at each other in sync, both wondering what or who it could possibly be.
"what are you waiting for? go look." i shoo aqua with my hand and instead of getting up and off her lazy ass, she glares at me. "you go look!" she retorts and i shake my head, trying not to let my aggravation show. "are you stupid? do i, in any way, look presentable right now?" i huff out, i forget how daft aqua can be at times. she throws her arms up in defeat as she gets up frustrated. "you look completely fine to me i don't see the issue" she mumbles more to herself than to me as she heads towards the door, and a small smile a victory spreads across my lips. "make sure to close the door" i remind her, before the tall girl slips out of my room, her slender arm still wrapped around the door, her fingers lingering on the door knob as she pulls the door, almost shutting it. a slit is left and her fingers slip from the door knob and i hear her receding footsteps down the hall. "fuck you" i mumble even if she can no longer hear me.
i get up and make my way to my closet, looking through it for clothes. i quickly find a top i like and i slide it off its hanger as my eyes start searching for a bottom. my hands run over the smooth material of a maroon pleated mini skirt. i remember my past obsession with the item and decide to take a hold of the hanger to hold it out in the light. i place the white top next to it, debating how good of a match it would be.
suddenly the sound of hurried, heavy footsteps reverberate through the floors. the door of my room bursts open and a flustered aquarius tumbles in, her cheeks dusted in pink.
without turning towards her i mumble, " mind closing the door there big foot, i'm not exactly decent." i motion to the "over sized" shirt that barely covered my ass. then the thought of the poor libra stumbling into the room crosses my mind, and i just bet it would make his day to have a peek at the view. any guy's day would be made by being graced by my presence.
aquarius uses her weight to push the door to a close, and i keep looking through my clothes. "so are you planning on telling me who's downstairs? or are you just gonna sit there with that fucked out expression on your face?" i mumble finally choosing on an outfit and peeling out of the clothes on my figure.
"right...uhm.." she takes a moment to clear her throat, trying to steady her words and failing miserably. "libra invited leo over for uh.. breakfast." i fight the urge to roll my eyes, turning around with a forced smile on my face.
"oh okay i see" i raise an eyebrow, a smirk playing on my lips as i tug the tight shirt over my head, smoothing it out with my hands. aquarius in response gives me a small smile.the girl is pathetic.
the deal with aquarius is that she's usually pretty good at spotting liars and fakes, she's a pretty smart girl. the key word is usually. she's mostly independent and reserved, keeping to herself. but people who end up involved with me tend to have a personality change. i'm good at getting what i want. i pull on my skirt, the material smooth and fanning out across my thighs. i find myself to be pretty good at making others feel vulnerable, which usually makes them spill out all their little secrets. i was surprised frankly at how easy it was to get aquarius to admit her feelings for the blond boy downstairs. especially as it seemed she could barely admit it to herself. of course she knows about his and i's on and off thing, but both him and i aren't too much into the whole 'commitment' thing. exactly another reason why were perfect for one another. i almost crack a smile but i contain it, remembering i wasn't alone. i get myself a pair of socks before looking through the different pairs of shoes stored away in the back of my closet. of course i convinced aquarius that i was done with the boy and kept quiet about my extracurricular activities. i like to use that to my advantage against her, and obviously i have no worries of her ever getting together with my boy. she's just a source of entertainment really, to add a spice to leo and i's complex relationship. i may not necessarily be the smartest but i know how to intimidate people and get my information. and it is never wrong.
i pull on some white air force ones and stand up straight, proud with my look.
"wow gem, you look amazing" the words simply spill out of aquarius's mouth.
i know. "a compliment? from aquarius herself?" i say adding a dry chuckle to the end of my statement. "i'm far from being done sweetheart" i say headed to the vanity at the far end of the room. i sit down in the little white chair, rolling on its wheels towards the drawers. "oh no please gemini, you'll take an eternity" she pleads, i spin my chair to glare at her, rolling my eyes. "you know what fine. but i'm going downstairs to spend time with leo" she smiles brightly before exiting my room.
my first thought is that, that's the most straightforward i had ever seen her about her feelings towards leo, the second thought being, that i simply cannot have that. not that i think she may have a shot or anything but why would she get to spend time with the boy and not me?
i stare at my reflection for a while, trying to focus on what may be necessary. i was wasting too much time. i hurry up and after a final coat of mascara i rush out of my room.
reaching the bottom step, i have a view of leo standing in front of the oven. i go to take a seat on one of the island stools next to aqua. libra arrives and takes a seat at the edge. leo looks over his shoulder, a dazzling smile on his face. "i made eggs." well he definitely seemed to be in a better mood then yesterday. mine is still a bit salty, his reaction was upsetting. he should have been happy. leo gets some plates and silverware, placing them on the marble surface before turning around once more, grabbing the pan and shutting off the oven. he starts scooping out portions into the ceramic plates and i hear the toaster spring out whatever it contained, out of the machine. leo looks at me through the hair that had fallen in his face. his tongue darts out of his mouth and slides across his bottom lip. and as quickly as it had happened, he turns around to get, i assume, the toast from the toaster. i bite my lip to refrain myself from smiling, crossing my legs atop of one another, getting my phone out. as i definitely needed a distraction.
