Dear Life,

Loved

i want to write this feeling
but how do i show you?
show you how my touch had a deeper meaning
show you how my heart took a beating

but the heart is just tissue pumping blood to the rest of my body
and i don't like how the thing that took a beating for you
is the thing beating for all of me

i don't know how to write this feeling
because my words won't mean the same to you
won't make you feel the way i do

i don't like how you're in my head
that's stupid i know
because there are 7.5 billion others to think about and yet you
you waste my head

i'm not stupid
i know this is stupid
i know this feeling, this beaten heart, and this wasted head are stupid
and to know this yet ignore this makes me stupid
but not you

you're not even that great
you're mean and you make me cry
and i know this isn't fate
so tell me why
i'm still feeling with this beaten heart and wasted head

i know why
i don't want to know why
it's because no matter what
you're not stupid even when everything else is

you know when something's so great you don't have words
i'm sorry
because you're good enough for words but everything i want to write isn't enough
i want to help i want to have i want to be enough i want to think

i can do those things on my own
i can't do those things with you
so how great is this feeling
if i'm getting clipped
some want to be clipped
and what makes me mad is that
i know
i know i shouldn't do that

i don't know if i'd mind that

i want to write this feeling
but this feeling is stupid i'm stupid
but you're not

that's stupid

i want to write this feeling but
i don't know how
you mess me up
i know that
i know my life is a bit tight and the mess makes me happy
No,
makes me feel...
makes me feel...
makes me feel...