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Love -.-

Why do I still love him? All he's done for nearly a week is ignore me. I've done my best to do the same. But at this point, I'd do anything to keep him in my life.Im screwed if I talk to him, an I'm screwed if I'm don't. Guhh... Why are men so complicated? So, supposedly I frustrate him. all I did was try to talk to him before I resorted to cutting. He doesn't care. He never has. Why would he,anyway? even if I am hi best friend's sister? He'd let me die. He would even give me the knife. I'm scared of losing him from my life. Then again,why do I need all this stress from him? Half the time he's the reason for my cuts and thoughts and the other half is from him preventing them. I am dying to talk to him,but I don't know what to say. He already knows how I feel. he just doesn't care about me at all. Why am I so stupid to even think that this could possible work out? He's absolutely perfect and I'm just... Me. A nobody. A nerd. Why am I treated like this? Does he not understand that I'd die for him? He's my reason to live. I love him with all I have. I just wish he'd speak to me. A simple "hi",or "hello" would be fine. This silence is killing me.