Lyricz ' N ' Love • A Ice Cube Short Story [ COMPLETE ]

Epilogue - Love Yourself

1988

" You really stuck with this kid", Desire said to me as she shook her head. " I never seen this coming"

"I know you wish you stuck with Dre." I laughed as I stared at my reflection in the mirror.

I was glowing and I loved everything about myself. It took a long time for me to feel this way about myself.

I had on a white Tommy Hilfiger Jean Jacket with all white Flared Tommy Hilfiger jeans with a Pink Bandeau top to give my outfit color and a pair of Pink YSL Heels mom bought me for my outstanding grades from the last semester.

My hair was dyed honey blonde and styled into feather curls and my elegant engagement ring gave my outfit the perfect pop. Of course when I showed my parents, I told them it was a promise ring but I think they know that was a bunch of bullshit.

Daddy says as open as he was off my mom, he never gave her no hefty diamond ring as a promise ring. Last he recalled he gave her a ring pop and she ate it. Until I'm ready to let the cat out the bag to my parents, he will do the same with his.

Keep it on the hush.

"Please. Aint nobody stressin Dre" Desiree waved me off. " He kept having babies on me, so I had to go."

"I know that was music to mommy's ears. But now that they famous and whatnot you know woman gonna flock to them like flies"

That's right. O'shea and his friends became these mega stars and its like it happened overnight. NWA was their name. Niggas with Attitude. How beautiful and professional right?

He said that his major wasn't working out for him and college was starting to piss him off and he always had a thing for writing. I knew at some point in time he was in a little rap group but he never spoke much about it.

Overall, I'm proud of my man. I can honestly say that everything happens for a reason. I was this insecure girl who was obsessed about her size and people judging me for it. I was laughed at, talked about, ridiculed because I wasn't a size 6.

But this amazing guy came into my life and let me know that it's not about what size you are, it is about who you are. He never once judged me about my size, never made me feel insecure. Everything was me, allowing people who do nothing for me to consume so much of my positive vibes and switch them to negative vibes.

I thought if I slimmed down that all my problems would go away. Guys would like me more and not be ashamed of me. I wasn't the problem.

They were.

O'shea taught me how to love and more importantly how to love myself. Which is more of the reasons why I said yes to being his forever and a day. I love O'shea with every bit of my heart and soul and he knows it too. He taught me to trust, to be open to love, embracing my flaws and accepting them for what they are because its what makes me...me.

We're all flawed, beautiful creatures.

Mya, Destiny, and Janae were on their way to pick me up from O'shea's and I apartment not too far from campus. Daddy was surprisingly okay with me moving with O'shea, of course after he had a talk with him about the responsibility of taking care of a household and especially me.

My friends say that I'm moving too fast but I think that everything is just right. I'm still in school and pursuing my dreams and he is living his best life, doing what he loved, rapping and performing.

As for my sister, She and Dre called it quits cause he can't seem to respect her and keep his manhood in his pants. Girls were constantly coming up to campus to try to fight my sister behind his trifling ass but no one ever dared lay a finger on her.

I thought she would learn her lesson but she jumped from bad to worse.

Eric.

Desiree assumed that Daddy would like Eric because he hangs with O'shea but little does Desiree know, Mommy had to help Eric out of a lot of sticky situations as his lawyer at a point in time. She doesn't know that, but I do. I just ignore the fact that he is dealing with my sister.

It's a matter of time before she comes to our parents and tells them that she is late and could be expecting. Especially from what I heard about Eric. He is well known all over Compton, South Central, Watts, wherever. For being fruitful with his Penis.

Anyway, it took me a long time to feel comfortable in the skin that I am in. I am way more confident and it shows. O'shea walks around with me like I'm the only woman in the world and no bitch could never step to me.

I had spent most of my life, feeling odd and feeling like maybe if I work out a little more...someone would love me. maybe if I looked like my airhead ass sister who I love dearly; I'd be able to have a real relationship.

Or just maybe...But all those maybes came to a stop when I let go of negative thoughts and embraced the positive ones my man gave me. Excuse me, my husband to be.

My heart is full and I am ready to give myself the credit I deserve. Perfect girls aint real and I had to learn to love myself.

And with that, I received my blessing.

True, Pure, God willing Love and confidence.

Alone in the day time
Ragin thoughts going through your mind
Wishin' you had her life
Wishin' you was on the other side
You are beautiful inside
Don't you let 'em still your pride'
You should learn to live your life
For yourself, no one else


Perfect girls ain't real...
They hide who they are inside
Perfect girls ain't real
They live a lie... but...
It's always on your mind
'Cause you're online all the time
Know that perfect girls ain't real
Gotta learn to love yourself
Gotta learn to love yourself
Inside and out

- TLC

Lyricz' N' Love

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