Circa January 2019
Hi again,
You must wonder why I keep writing to you. I mean after all, what kind of psycho writes to her best friend's ex who she stole but not totally successfully from said ex. Me. I'm that kind of psycho.
Just an update. Your ex, my best friend, has a girlfriend. She's a pageant queen. She must be good for him but he's careful not too say too much about her to me. I think he knows it still hurts.
I just got left. Again.
I was seeing someone for two whole months this time. Then when I asked for commitment and for a little better communication, he left. I don't think that those are irrational things to ask for.
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ghosted.
I've never really been ghosted before and it hurts. You should know that I did really good with this one. I didn't steal him from anyone, I didn't lose my temper, I tried not to be needy or aggressive. I did really good and it still wasn't enough.
Everyday I feel like i'm closer to
getting in the car
and driving
into the river.
splash.
I don't and I won't, but it crosses my mind a lot.
I miss my friends. I feel so alone here. I'm jealous of your relationship with my family because I'm about ready to pull chunks of hair out.
I suppose that's all.
sorry to bother.
xoxox,
jolene
