D I F F E R E N T

//S U I C I D E//

Y/n pov
I knew Billie was cheating on me. Coming home late. Smelling like other girls perfume. Makeup on her shirt. Lipstick all over her body. I couldn't bring myself to say anything because she brought me out of a really deep state but she's putting me back. I am emotionally, physically, and mentally drained. She gets home every night around the same time always blaming it on staying at the studio late. When we are together she constantly on her phone. I'm just so over it I want all of my pain to go away. My parents are gone I have no other family I just want to end it. That's what I plan to do. I wrote Billie a letter explaining why I'm doing what I'm doing. With that I take a bunch of sleeping pills in the tub and I feel myself sinking out of life.
8:00pm
Dead 
9:00pm
10:00pm
11:00 pm
12:45am
Billie pov
I hate cheating on y/n but she is so emotionally unstable I don't wanna leave her. Yeah I love her but not like I used to 3 years ago. My love for her faded out. I know I should've just broken up with her instead of cheating and coming home late I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Today I got home at 12:50am which was earlier than I usually do. I go into our bedroom ready to get in bed and I see that y/n isn't in bed. I call her name she says nothing I call again still no answer. I went into the bathroom and I swear my heart hit the ground. I seen my baby girl in the tub looking lifeless. I rushed over there trying to wake her I called 911 in the mist of all of it. They where there in less than 10 mins. They went into the bathroom I stood shaking and tears rolling down my face blaming myself. "Ma'am I'm sorry to tell you this but Ms.Y/n is dead. We will be taking her in to figure out the cause of death but by the looks of it, it was suicide it seems as if the has been dead between 2-4 hrs. You can say your goodbyes right now Ms.Eilish." Those words he just told me hurt me more than anything else I went into the bathroom I asked her why, why would she do this. I was crying hysterically they had to take her. I gave her a kiss on the head and they left. I felt so sick to my stomach. I threw everything up. I couldn't stay in the house tonight no scratch that ever I packed a bag and was getting necessities out of the bathroom cabinet when a paper on the stool next to the shower caught my eye "Billie" is what it said I grabbed it and sat on the bed.
Hey bil it's y/n lol well who else is it. I wanted to let you know that I couldn't take it anymore. I knew you where cheating bil I knew it since day one I just did not want to accept the fact that you where. I did not feel loved, and I did not  feel wanted. I felt like my whole existence was one big burden. I will always love you bil. My wishes in life never happened even though I was still young. My depression got the best of me. I just couldn't do it anymore. Billie Eilish Pirate Baird O'Connell I love you I will forever love you. Don't forget about me lil whore byeeeee.
-y/n ps you know I wanna be cremated and thrown into the ocean with a little lantern thing.
That's it that's the reason. I don't understand how someone can be so childish writing their suicide letter. I'm so stupid I sat there and cheated and she knew the whole time and I was so dumb to continue to do it. I hate how I noticed her getting skinnier, her eyes looking dead, the sadness cloud that lingered over her, and the worst of all how she avoided me like plague.
This is my fault. I caused this all she needed was love and I couldn't give her that.
I caused a death of another human.
A human I love.
One I will forever love.
I caused death.

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💛🕷 If you ever feel like you want to kill your self talk to someone. I don't care you can text me on here and i will listen to your problems. Well not listen more like read your problems but you know what i mean.