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I lay in my bed that night, praying I don't get any nightmares. But maybe they're good, because if I get a nightmare that means Draco can take care of me. And man, I want that again.

What's happening to me?!
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Draco's Pov

I lay on the couch I've been sleeping on since I got to the Weasley household. It not really comfortable but I've gotten used to it.

I shouldn't be complaining. They are letting me stay here even after all the horrible things I've done. After the horrible things my family has done.

My mind starts to wonder. What would happen if my Father found me? Would the Weasleys protect me? Or would I be forced to be with him again?

I can feel my heart racing. My vision starts to blur. No no no. This can't happen here. Not now. Not ever. No one can see me like this.

I run to the bathroom up stairs and close the door with a slight slam. Hopefully no one will wake up.

I start to shake and it's getting hard to breathe. I look in the mirror and I don't recognize the person looking back at me. Who am I? What have I become? Do I deserve to be here?

I can't stop the tears from flowing down my face. I slide down the wall and hold my knees tight to my chest as if that can stop me from falling apart. I cover my mouth so no one can hear my sobs. But I was wrong. Someone heard me.

I hear a knock at the door and I freeze. No. No. No. No. Please go away. No one can see me like this. No one.

A memory flashes in my mind

"No one can see you like this!" My Father yells, "Look at you! You're a mess!! Go to room and clean yourself up. If you act like this again, you know what will happen." My father says in a ominous tone.

"I'm sorry. It- it won't happen again. I pr- promise Father." I stutter as I walk up to my room. As soon as I know he can't see me anymore I run to my room and quietly close the door.

I can't breathe. I can't see. My tears are blurring my vision. What's going on? Why can't I breathe? Why can't I stop crying? Why can't I stop...

The door nob starts to rattle as I'm brought back to reality. I can't speak and I can't move. Then I hear a voice.

"Draco? Are you in there?" Harry asks sleepily.

"Ye- yeah." I stutter. Damn it. Good job Draco.

"Hey. Are you alright?" He asked, more awake this time. 

I reply, "Probably not."

"Draco. Let me in please." He asks, obviously concerned.

"I'm fine Harry. I swear. Just leave me alone please." Please. I'm begging you. Leave me alone.

"Draco, you helped me today. Let me help you." He answers. "Draco, whatever you're going through, you don't have to go through it alone. We're friends now Draco. Please let me in." He voice starts to fade. Almost sounding sad.

Friends? We're actually friends? For some reason, in the middle of storm that is going on in my mind; I feel warmth in my heart. I finally give in and slowly open the door. I sit back in to the position I was before, now hiding my face.

The door is closed again then I feel Harry's presence settle next to me. He doesn't talk. He doesn't force me to speak. He just sits there until I'm ready.

I take a shaky breath and wipe the tears away from my eyes. I look at him and he looks at me.

"Draco, what's wrong?" Harry asks.

"I'm scared Harry. I'm scared my Father will find me. You have no idea what he will do to me. He might just kill me.... he would hurt me even if I left the house without permission. But now...." I say as my voice fades and my eyes wonder in front of me in fear.

"Draco, you will never go back to that monster. I won't let it. Even if I have to kill him." Harry says. He sounds so determined that it shocks me.

We look at each, almost as we can't look away. We both inch our faces closer together. I can feel his breath on my lips. My entire body screams "KISS HIM, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD KISS HIM," but my mind tells if I do that, it will ruin everything.

As if Harry knows my internal battle he put his hand on my check and slowly caresses it and smiles at me.

"It's okay. I'll understand." He says, barely above a whisper.

"But Harry, I want too. I want you." I grab his face and smash our lips together. This entire time my body, my mind, my soul was in a constant battle. But now, everything is calm and I am at peace.

He shocked at first but he slowly kisses my back. His hand falls from my cheek and finds my neck. He intertwine his fingers together and pulls me closer, deepening the kiss.

Sadly, we had to stop so we could catch our breath. Our foreheads are pressed against each others as we settle down. We both look at each other, shocked about what just happened.

"What... what are we..?" I ask slowly.

"I don't know. But trust me, I'm willing to figure it out, as long as you are." Harry says, as he still tries to catch his breath.

I close my eyes shut and think. Do I want this? Do I want him? Is he all I every needed? The answer is yes. A thousand time, yes!

I nod my head and kiss him again. Peace settles in my body. But something as well, the overwhelming feeling of exhaustion. I slowly pull away, ending the blissful kiss.

"I just realized how tired I am..." I say in a lazy tone.

"Me too." Harry says as he yawns.

We both get up and start to walk out of the bathroom. Harry holds out his hand to mine.

"Let me take you downstairs." He says with a cute little smile on his face. I grab his hand with excitement and squeeze it tight. We slowly walk down the stairs, making sure not to trip.

He leads me to the couch and let's go of my hand.

"Goodnight Draco." He says. Then he kisses my cheek and walks back up the stairs to bed.

"Goodnight Harry." I say as I hold to place where he kissed me. I lay on the couch and get comfy.

As I lay there, I almost giddy. While I slowly drift to sleep, I can't help but feel the warmth is my heart and the smile on my face.


















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