I can't help it (James and Grayson)

Chapter 4

James' POV:

-3am Sunday evening-

My mouth is wrapped around his cock as his hands tightly grip my hair. I'm going as deep as I can, satisfied when I can hear him groan loudly. One of my hands is cupping his balls and the other is resting on his rock hard abs.

"Fuck James, you're so good at that" he mutters under his breath as I gag on him multiple times without pulling away. His cock is so big, it's difficult to get it in all the way down my throat but whenever I do he always rewards me.

"You need to stop before you make me cum. Lay down on the bed with your ass in the air" He says sternly, I obey. He gets on the bed also and starts kissing down my spine and than my ass cheeks. He loves to tease me, take things so slow that I beg for him to hurry up and just fuck me hard; that said, he never listens and does exactly what he wants in the end, not that I can complain when it feels so good.

I gasp as I feel his tongue lick gently from my balls to my asshole.

"You have such a pretty ass princess" He says as he pushes his tongue further in my entrance.  I love it when he calls me that. I moan loudly and it encourages him to speed up, slipping his tongue in and out, getting me more turned on than I thought was possible. Suddenly his hand reached round to touch my cock, making me want to cum on the spot but I know I can't because we've only just started.

Only a few minutes later he's already fingering me with three digits, getting me ready for his huge cock. It feels so good to be stretched, he knows exactly how to work his fingers to make me scream out his name in pleasure.

"Turn around baby, I want to fuck you" He says as he retracts his fingers, straight away I miss the feeling of fullness. I turn around, and he comes up higher till his head is between my neck and shoulder. He starts kissing and sucking on my neck, I can feel his hard, hot cock against my own.

"I love you James" he whispers in my ear as he moves his face in front of mine.

"I love you too Grayson" I reply between his kisses.

That's when I wake up. My whole body covered in sweat and I can feel the ache of my boner under the covers. Jesus Christ these dreams have got to stop. I notice Adam sleeping peacefully next to me. I feel guilty for dreaming about Grayson but it's not like I control my dreams and I would be lying if I said I didn't enjoy them, which does make me a awful boyfriend. These dreams started a couple weeks after I got with Adam, I try not to think about the meaning of that because I am genuinely happy with Adam, he's good for me. He's openly gay so our relationship isn't secret, he always wants to hang out and we tell each other everything, well not everything, I don't mention the dreams I've been having.

I didn't think seeing Grayson last night would make my feeling for him come back so hard but when they hit me I couldn't stop thinking about him. Especially when we were in the kitchen and he kissed my cheek, that always makes me weak in the knees. I know it was bad of me but I wanted to just turn my face and kiss his lips, just to see how it feels and if it would be just how I imagined. Grayson is too confusing for me, unlike Adam who knows exactly what he wants. Why do I always have to be attracted to a challenge?

I go to the bathroom and splash my face with cool water, looking at myself in the mirror and sighing. Why does my brain have to be so indecisive?

I try my best to sleep that night but I'm riddled with guilt and thoughts of the boy I love and the boy I'm trying so hard to love.